Weeeeeee! Isn't San Jose fun?! hehe

Ok, yes I'm double blogging mostly because no one else has written anything and I can't sleep. Surprise Surprise! But, anyway it's been great seeing everyone during the break and hopefully I will get to see others. To anyone who played Football for the annual Turkey Bowl, I am sore, I can't move my legs, but it was all fun. Hope to do it again soon!

I finally sent my pictures to get developed so there could potentially be some new material on my Web site by Sunday, but who knows. I also have a lot of hw to be done for next week (two presentations, Sr Project and a DB). Good thing about all of this is taht I only have one final. Woo hoo! After Friday there will be only a little stress on Bryant's poor little mind.

So far the highlights of break are winning at 13, playing socom with brendan in the same room, having 3 great thanksgiving meals (Yams and Apple pie, absolutely delicious!), but as always it's been great seeing my friends. It was especially nice having one of my long talks with Derek. Since he decides not to blog very often and I don't get a hold of him too much during the quarter it was nice to catch up. It was fun because we got to reminise about the old times, old gfs, philosophies in life, school, friends, and the future.

To sum up some more important things that I thought we talked about:
Is it really better to love and lose, than to never love at all? In a romantic relationship sense not like parents, friends, attachment to Socom hehe. I said right now I hate losing love, so it's not better. But I know down the line, I'll be happy that I was given the chance to fall in love. To go through your whole life without love, that just boggles my mind that it could happen to someone. I now have something to strive for later in life. It's not something I'm going to actively search for right now, but if something comes up, I know I can't let the opportunity pass me by. Derek made the same point about how he would rather love and lose, then to never love at all.

Another thing that we talked about is how friends get all pissy when others joke around about the others girlfriend. With the nature of our group and our friendship, I think it's dumb that someone would really get angry if we joked around about someone else's gf. I think we all know there's a time where it can be too much, but I don't think we've ever gotten into that territory. I hope I wasn't that way with my gf's. But sometimes your blinded, so maybe I could've been, but I really don't think I ever got offended because I know you guys don't really mean it and if you did or had a problem with someone you would tell me immediately.

We talked about regrets in relationships, love, etc. Derek made a point that got me. When people ask "Why her?" or "Why is she the one?" ...etc....most of the times the answer will not be there. And it's mostly up to the person, but for me especially it's just a gut feeling. There's just everything in your body that screams that it's right. It's pretty much unexplainable, but it's a feeling that I would love to have forever.

Something that Derek and I talked about before I went back to school was an interesting topic, I thought at least. Derek asked me if I were to choose to fall in love, but travel to a distant land w/ her because her job was over there, and potentially lose a great job here in the states and lose some of the security in life or to continue on with my career to create that stability and potentially get back together later, but it wasn't certain, what would I do? Well, for me it depends on how much my logical side takes over my emotional side, vice versa. It would be really hard for me pack up and go because I'm the type of person who creates a comfort level and it's hard for me to break that. But to fall in love, it's one of the best feelings in the world and it would terrible to let that kind of opportunity pass me by. These types of questions, I'm not that great at answering mostly because I hate to worry about things until they actually happen, but this one got me thinking. Don't know why.

Another thing that got me thinking after talking w/ Hapachan, was about our personalities and about how we perceive friendships. Like if someone does something mean, I like to give them the benefit of the doubt that they didn't mean to, especially if they're my friend. Does that lead to me being potentially stepped on? Maybe. Being naive? Probably. But my flip side to it is if someone intentionally tries to hurt me and I find out about it, that puts one hellava strain on our friendship. You lose my loyalty and trust as a friend and its hard to gain back. I like to try and be that friendly person and take care of my friends the best I can, I try and be there always for them and if they want to potentially ruin screw that up, that's there choice, but I think that's their loss. I don't know, something tells me I might have to change my philosophy so that things don't hurt as much when I get disappointed in others. Easier said than done. hehe

I apologize, I've rambled on and on. It's weird, whenever I start writing in this thing, it feels like I can talk for days about random stuff in my head. I'm finally trying to get my life back on track and I guess this helps me move along more smoothly. Anyway, I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and I will talk to you all soon. Take care.

In case any of you care, I'm leaving to SJ as we speak, so if anyone wants to kick it wednesday, give me a call.

I just took a midterm, hopefully I did ok, but whatevers; it's done! I decided instead of studying last night that I would clean my room and bathroom. WheeE! So when I come back it's going to be spick and span.

Alright, y'all talk to ya soon and hopefully I can get to everyone. Have a safe drive, flight, etc. Peace outz

The schedule for work finally came out... Looks like I'll be able to come home on Wed and Thursday, but I have work on friday, and *possibly* Saturday. I'm going to see if I can get that day off today, so I'll log a little later to give the news :)

Steve... I'll give you my copy of Max Payne! I'm not playing it anymore, and it's starting to gather dust... It was a great game, and I think I got my money's worth out of it. I can't say that for very many games now though. I'll just look forward to the new DDR coming this winter :) And on a side note, I heard that the GameCube will be getting a bunch of puzzle games wrapped up in one... Tetris Attack here we come!

What a waste of blog space! I'll post more after work!

wsup guys

I'm very happy right now because I just found out that Cal beat Stanford in the big game this past saturday. It was a blow out:30-7. Stanford hasn't done that shitty since 1967. Those stupid shits. What kind of mascot is a TREE? Anyways, they got their asses beat, and i'm damn glad. I hate stanford. Maybe it's cuz my mom is a die hard Cal Bears fan. Maybe it's cuz Stanford is a bunch of preppy, snobby, stuck up rich mother fuckers. Maybe it's cuz the one guy i remember going to stanford in high school was this annoying prick who would have gotten his ass beaten on a regular basis had he gone to Leigh, Prospect, or any other public high school. I dunno, but i hate stanford. And I'm damn glad the Axe is back in Berkeley. Hehe..Jon, did you know this?

so yeh. Thanksgiving is coming up. Heading back home shortly. I can't wait till this fucking quarter is over with. My god, my classes SUCK SHIT. I have never had so much work in my entire life. I have yet to figure out how i'm gonna get through the massive amounts of work i have waiting for me when i get back from stuffing my fat ass with turkey, gravy, stuffing, and yams. And pumpkin pie. If pumpkin pie and apple pie got into a fight, who would win? I'm thinking pumpkin. Cuz one hit to the apple pie and all the guts would just fall out. More importantly, on a related topic, who would win if Jon got into a fight with Derek? Or Bryant and Brendan's mom? These are all tough questions that we should all take time to think about over a hot cup of mayo.

I'm gonna be doing some serious running and working out over xmas break if any of you would like to join me. Mebbe join the Lockheed gym since i can get a discount there cuz my dad works there. However, he doesn't get hookups on pumpkin pie like some other spoiled mother fuckers. Jk you bastard =)

So recently i was thinking about how about a year ago i had kinda wished i had pledged for an asian fraternity. Seemed kinda cool at the time, and it saddened me to think that i was too old to do so. BUT then after reading many peoples xangas, blogs, live journals, etc, i realized something. ALL THEY DO IS DRINK. DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK. I swear, if you're not a meeting, then you're drinking. Drinking at a party, drinking at a brotherhood event, drinking at an exchange, drink drink drink drink!!!! Now, while the drinking part DOES sound good, I would imagine that after a while it gets old. What else do you do besides, drink and beat the shit out of the pledges? Ah I dunno. I mean, I hvae a lot of friends who are "affiliated", and they're happy, and that being the case, more power to them. But i just wonder sometimes what it would have been like if i had done all that. None of that wondering has regret mixed in it however, which i'm happy to say. I'm in one fraternity already, and that's fine with me.

yeh clouds are aight, u pixie stick. But really, I agree. I'm a sucker for those Ansel Adams prints, you know the b&w ones of nature scenes. I was gonna buy a large poster of this awesome lake print, then i saw the price: 85 DOLLARS!!! Shit, i'll fuckin go and buy a disposible camera and take a few shots of my bathtub filled with water and save myself about 75 bucks. shiet.

Brian, you better be coming back home for thanksgiving and chill with us. AND YES YOU BETTER STAY LONGER THAN A FEW HOURS!!! Brendan's grandpa has become very angry that you don't kick it no more and he's on the brink of violent rage. I know in your quest to become the CEO of Scandia you have very little time (hehehe), but get ur ass back here you mofo. We'll reminisce about the good old days, like trumpets, the good harvests, etc. Then you and jon can play puzzle games, while me, bryant, and brendan sit in the back and slowly DIE. BTW, easy xmas gift from yah: Could i get a burned copy of Max Payne? thanks bro. You were the bomb in Phantoms yo!

Socks...YESSSSSSSSS.....

I'm thinking that now that i have a PC i should invest in some video games. Preferrably, the ones that have a lot of shooting and violence. Those are fun. Not like some stupid RPGs made by Disney where you fucking fight with a KEY. Hahaha.. I joke.

Aight. back to the paper. 8 pages. Due tomorrow. Started: negative. Read the necessary books: negative. First priority: blogging. Final analysis: it's gonna be a long nite.

take it easy gentlemen. I'm hoping that life finds u in good spirits. Payce. First rounds on me when i get back. See y'all soon.