Dec 18, 2005
Dec 12, 2005
Okay so I have a lot of pictures to sort through...roughly 500+ and like I said...I'll probably only like 25 of them. That is not to say the subjects were crappy, basically just my photographic EYE. Some of this turned out too soft and out of focus and some of them look really crappy compositionally...but all in all...I have stumbled on a few so far that are almost magical to say the least...
So for a preview...here is me walking with Shannon's family. Who knew we would meet up with them there? Shangri-La tours in the hizouse.
So for a preview...here is me walking with Shannon's family. Who knew we would meet up with them there? Shangri-La tours in the hizouse.
Dec 4, 2005
First off, sorry for uploading these on the blogger. I know it fucks up our layout and I will hopefully get my website back up soon so I can have a new photography session. For those that don't know, I just got a new camera...definetely not one of those point/shoot ones, but a camera that resembles a 35mm. It set me back a pretty penny, but so far with these images I am very happy with the outcome. These of course are LQ so please don't judge the camera on these images. All the RAW images are actually about 50X30 inches. Enough to make a decent sized print!
So Aaron, Jen and Shan were nice enough to come to my part of town to eat dinner because they know I'm lazier than shit. It seems they got their money with Guitar Hero, Gunther.net, Wacom Tablets and XBOX360. All the while they let me even photograph them...I hope these photos help capture the fun we had! While checking out these images I learned a lot about my camera and what does and does not work. Hopefully the Disneyland photos will be something special. In the meantime enjoy these!
So Aaron, Jen and Shan were nice enough to come to my part of town to eat dinner because they know I'm lazier than shit. It seems they got their money with Guitar Hero, Gunther.net, Wacom Tablets and XBOX360. All the while they let me even photograph them...I hope these photos help capture the fun we had! While checking out these images I learned a lot about my camera and what does and does not work. Hopefully the Disneyland photos will be something special. In the meantime enjoy these!
Dec 1, 2005
Madden 360 Style
With the craze of Fantasy Football, Colts undefeated season, the 49ers sucking, but @ times looking promising, I was pretty stoked to get this version of Madden. I had played the same game for regular Xbox and I was pretty disappointed because Madden had just peaked in terms of gameplay.
Pros about the new one:
-Of the course the graphics. The stadiums look great, the field looks awesome, and the player models are spectacular.
-Got rid of any of the "stupid" modes in Madden that don't focus on game play itself.
-The user interface is easy to use and intuitive. The way you call plays now seems easier and more efficient as it shows more plays on the screen.
-The AI seems a bit smarter when it comes to D. I have a hard time scoring 40+ pts against the computer. This could also attribute that I'm using the Niners, but who knows.
-Utilizes Dolby Digital 5.1 - which makes it sound awesome.
Cons:
-No mini-camp. The mini-games were kind of dumb, but I did like the fact that you could progress your players with it.
-No post game stats. This seems like a simple thing to have, but for some reason they got rid of it. All you get to see is the top statistical leaders for the game.
-No way to change camera angles. The gameplay changes a little bit when you hike the ball, but it would be nice to have this basic feature as well.
-No Madden - he may be annoying, but he's a classic. "BooM" "Where'd that truck come from!?" The new announcer isn't very good.
-The controls are a bit funky. There's a button for sprint, hold ball, spin, juke, stiff arm - it's a tough combo of buttons. Moving your QB and doing a pump are used with the same control stick and it must be sensitive because I seem to pump all the time which leads to sacks.
-I haven't gotten this far yet, but they took out scouting of the college players which I thought was kind of cool.
So all in all, it's still a solid game, but this is like the "core xbox 360" where ironically the other console version would be the "premium." I expect next years Madden to include anything missing from the stripped down version.
In the meantime, I will wait anxiously and hoping EA will release a MVP game for 360.
With the craze of Fantasy Football, Colts undefeated season, the 49ers sucking, but @ times looking promising, I was pretty stoked to get this version of Madden. I had played the same game for regular Xbox and I was pretty disappointed because Madden had just peaked in terms of gameplay.
Pros about the new one:
-Of the course the graphics. The stadiums look great, the field looks awesome, and the player models are spectacular.
-Got rid of any of the "stupid" modes in Madden that don't focus on game play itself.
-The user interface is easy to use and intuitive. The way you call plays now seems easier and more efficient as it shows more plays on the screen.
-The AI seems a bit smarter when it comes to D. I have a hard time scoring 40+ pts against the computer. This could also attribute that I'm using the Niners, but who knows.
-Utilizes Dolby Digital 5.1 - which makes it sound awesome.
Cons:
-No mini-camp. The mini-games were kind of dumb, but I did like the fact that you could progress your players with it.
-No post game stats. This seems like a simple thing to have, but for some reason they got rid of it. All you get to see is the top statistical leaders for the game.
-No way to change camera angles. The gameplay changes a little bit when you hike the ball, but it would be nice to have this basic feature as well.
-No Madden - he may be annoying, but he's a classic. "BooM" "Where'd that truck come from!?" The new announcer isn't very good.
-The controls are a bit funky. There's a button for sprint, hold ball, spin, juke, stiff arm - it's a tough combo of buttons. Moving your QB and doing a pump are used with the same control stick and it must be sensitive because I seem to pump all the time which leads to sacks.
-I haven't gotten this far yet, but they took out scouting of the college players which I thought was kind of cool.
So all in all, it's still a solid game, but this is like the "core xbox 360" where ironically the other console version would be the "premium." I expect next years Madden to include anything missing from the stripped down version.
In the meantime, I will wait anxiously and hoping EA will release a MVP game for 360.
Nov 30, 2005
Gift Giving
You gotta love this time of year. For some people it is filled with joy and happiness and for some it is a time of anxiety and wondering if that certain friend is going to get you anything this year...and just what exactly are you going to buy them. So with that being said I will be perfectly clear in who I am giving gifts to. If you feel like buying gifts for other people is a waste of your money then perhaps you would like to skip the stage of life and go straight to hell. Tony will arrange that for you. As for the rest of you fags, I will tell you who I am getting gifts for. This is no way an attempt to make you guilty of not getting me anything. Besides, Steve doesn't get guilty and he only reaps the benefits of Xmas. =)
Bryant - Is getting a gift of some sort. Except for once his gift will be something he needs not exactly what he wants. Haha.
Tony - Has not been around for the holidays in the past couple of years. I have grown fond of Tony even though he sucks at Winning 11 and provides no challenge whatsoever. He will be getting a gift so he can truly enjoy Christmas with us this year.
Andy - I have to get Andy something because he is poor. He is my captain and he deserves something for leading me into battle. I trust and follow his wisdom in the gaming world and it usually keeps me alive. Usually...
Derek - Is also getting a gift. I have it narrowed down to a couple of choices, but no final decision is made just yet.
Kevin - I don't even talk to this fool anymore. However I will probably go into something with Bryant/Andy for your gift. I would make it more personal, but ever since you got a girlie dog and bought a house...you just don't seem like that nigga I knew back in da' hood. =)
Steve - Ahh Steve. To Steve's defense he has ALWAYS said not to get him anything. I completely disobeyed him every year thinking he was bluffing. He wasn't. Haha. But Steve, once again I got you something. This is a gift that might not be the best in the world, but I did put a lot of thought into it.
WILDCARDS (NOT YET BEEN DECIDED)
Jonathan - I say we save our money for this 40K poker tournament we are having. How about we just go out to dinner after a day of card playing. We can buy each other the same amount of chips. Haha. But seriously, let me know if you want to or not want to do the gift giving thing. And I promise that if we say not to get anything for each other...I won't pull a Derek and give you something.
Brian - This fucker one year got everyone and their mom gifts. It was totally unexpected, but a very nice surprise. We then retaliated by giving him a game that we didn't even end up playing that much. Haha. As with Jonathan, let me know if you are getting me a gift. Or you can join in on the poker idea above. What d'ya say? Everyone go to the card room and dominate?
THE BOTTOM LINE IS THIS. THIS YEAR I WAS REALLY LOOKING AT PEOPLE'S INTERESTS AND ON THE LOOK OUT FOR SHIT THEY NEED. I DIDN'T GO OUT THINKING, "WHAT AM I GOING TO GET THIS PERSON?" IT WAS MORE OF A "OH HEY THEY MIGHT BE ABLE TO USE/ENJOY THAT FOR A XMAS GIFT" AND THEY ARE GETTING SOMETHING FROM ME.
So to say again. This is who I am getting gifts for with the exception of Jonathan and Brian who I haven't found anything for just yet. If you guys get back to me and want to scratch the other off the list then that is fine by me, but only because I haven't found anything just yet for you. So lemme know.
On a more ipmortant note: I'm down with Zhang Ziyi as an actress...but give me a fucking break. CHINKS DO NOT PLAY JAPS. See Tamilyn Tomita can play a chinese person (Joy Luck Club) only becuase she is superior to them. Zhang cannot play a Japanese...even a Japanese slut for that matter because she is inferior. Haha. So who's gonna see the film with me?
You gotta love this time of year. For some people it is filled with joy and happiness and for some it is a time of anxiety and wondering if that certain friend is going to get you anything this year...and just what exactly are you going to buy them. So with that being said I will be perfectly clear in who I am giving gifts to. If you feel like buying gifts for other people is a waste of your money then perhaps you would like to skip the stage of life and go straight to hell. Tony will arrange that for you. As for the rest of you fags, I will tell you who I am getting gifts for. This is no way an attempt to make you guilty of not getting me anything. Besides, Steve doesn't get guilty and he only reaps the benefits of Xmas. =)
Bryant - Is getting a gift of some sort. Except for once his gift will be something he needs not exactly what he wants. Haha.
Tony - Has not been around for the holidays in the past couple of years. I have grown fond of Tony even though he sucks at Winning 11 and provides no challenge whatsoever. He will be getting a gift so he can truly enjoy Christmas with us this year.
Andy - I have to get Andy something because he is poor. He is my captain and he deserves something for leading me into battle. I trust and follow his wisdom in the gaming world and it usually keeps me alive. Usually...
Derek - Is also getting a gift. I have it narrowed down to a couple of choices, but no final decision is made just yet.
Kevin - I don't even talk to this fool anymore. However I will probably go into something with Bryant/Andy for your gift. I would make it more personal, but ever since you got a girlie dog and bought a house...you just don't seem like that nigga I knew back in da' hood. =)
Steve - Ahh Steve. To Steve's defense he has ALWAYS said not to get him anything. I completely disobeyed him every year thinking he was bluffing. He wasn't. Haha. But Steve, once again I got you something. This is a gift that might not be the best in the world, but I did put a lot of thought into it.
WILDCARDS (NOT YET BEEN DECIDED)
Jonathan - I say we save our money for this 40K poker tournament we are having. How about we just go out to dinner after a day of card playing. We can buy each other the same amount of chips. Haha. But seriously, let me know if you want to or not want to do the gift giving thing. And I promise that if we say not to get anything for each other...I won't pull a Derek and give you something.
Brian - This fucker one year got everyone and their mom gifts. It was totally unexpected, but a very nice surprise. We then retaliated by giving him a game that we didn't even end up playing that much. Haha. As with Jonathan, let me know if you are getting me a gift. Or you can join in on the poker idea above. What d'ya say? Everyone go to the card room and dominate?
THE BOTTOM LINE IS THIS. THIS YEAR I WAS REALLY LOOKING AT PEOPLE'S INTERESTS AND ON THE LOOK OUT FOR SHIT THEY NEED. I DIDN'T GO OUT THINKING, "WHAT AM I GOING TO GET THIS PERSON?" IT WAS MORE OF A "OH HEY THEY MIGHT BE ABLE TO USE/ENJOY THAT FOR A XMAS GIFT" AND THEY ARE GETTING SOMETHING FROM ME.
So to say again. This is who I am getting gifts for with the exception of Jonathan and Brian who I haven't found anything for just yet. If you guys get back to me and want to scratch the other off the list then that is fine by me, but only because I haven't found anything just yet for you. So lemme know.
On a more ipmortant note: I'm down with Zhang Ziyi as an actress...but give me a fucking break. CHINKS DO NOT PLAY JAPS. See Tamilyn Tomita can play a chinese person (Joy Luck Club) only becuase she is superior to them. Zhang cannot play a Japanese...even a Japanese slut for that matter because she is inferior. Haha. So who's gonna see the film with me?
I would use the chatter box, but this may be more readable. I know Brendan will blog more on this later, but this is what I'm hearing so far about X-mas. It sounds like there might be some quasi-party gift giving going on.
Seeing the responses from Steve, Kevin, and Tony; talking with Brendan and Derek - it sounds like most people would like to get together for a little shindig -> this may/may not tie into the Annual Horiuchi Dinner (Brendan will provide more details) and may include some poker fun (with special guest Phil Ivey and his 40K). Most likely this would be an after Xmas - Pre New Years type o' deal.
It also sounds like people will be buying gifts for some and not others, which should be fine, since some of us know each other better then others and some just like giving gifts. Can't stop anybody for that! But gift giving among others is not mandatory. Christmas is the season of giving, not the season of "shit that guy bought me something, I better buy him something fast." That's a risk, but if Christmas is truly about giving, it shouldn't even matter, right? =)
Tony's right, where the most important thing for us should be spending the holidays together. With some of us not working and/or going to school, it's pretty much the only time of year where we can all hang out together and possibly see each more then once a weekend, if that. I know I'm a hermit because of work lately, so i'm definitely looking forward to the holidays. This doesn't count for just the Pooky guys either, I know we have some readers out there and I would love to spend the holidays with you (Horiuchis, Shannon, whomever else that reads this darn thing).
Still awaiting to hear from Andy, Jonathan, Farmer B on their thoughts for X-mas and whether they'll be joining us in our gathering. Actually this could include Kevin, but I'm especially looking at Brian on that one.
Seeing the responses from Steve, Kevin, and Tony; talking with Brendan and Derek - it sounds like most people would like to get together for a little shindig -> this may/may not tie into the Annual Horiuchi Dinner (Brendan will provide more details) and may include some poker fun (with special guest Phil Ivey and his 40K). Most likely this would be an after Xmas - Pre New Years type o' deal.
It also sounds like people will be buying gifts for some and not others, which should be fine, since some of us know each other better then others and some just like giving gifts. Can't stop anybody for that! But gift giving among others is not mandatory. Christmas is the season of giving, not the season of "shit that guy bought me something, I better buy him something fast." That's a risk, but if Christmas is truly about giving, it shouldn't even matter, right? =)
Tony's right, where the most important thing for us should be spending the holidays together. With some of us not working and/or going to school, it's pretty much the only time of year where we can all hang out together and possibly see each more then once a weekend, if that. I know I'm a hermit because of work lately, so i'm definitely looking forward to the holidays. This doesn't count for just the Pooky guys either, I know we have some readers out there and I would love to spend the holidays with you (Horiuchis, Shannon, whomever else that reads this darn thing).
Still awaiting to hear from Andy, Jonathan, Farmer B on their thoughts for X-mas and whether they'll be joining us in our gathering. Actually this could include Kevin, but I'm especially looking at Brian on that one.
Nov 29, 2005
Nov 28, 2005
Hi all,
As the X-mas season is drawing near, there have been some informal discussions in terms of how we're handling X-mas gifts for everyone. I've kind of heard mixed reviews on what everyone wants to do, so I was hoping that this blogger would garner some opinions. From what it seems to me, gift giving is kind of a chore that people feel obligated to do and I know us in Pooky don't want to create that kind of atmosphere.
We could do 3 things:
1. Buy gifts as usual for everyone.
2. Not buy gifts and everyone be ok with it.
3. Have like a little gift exchange party of some sort.
Any of the 3 options are ok with me. I don't mind just buying for family this year as most of us have what we want in life in terms of tangible items (Me especially haha). If we don't spend money on each other, I would say maybe we can pull some dinero together and throw a little holiday shindig. Maybe a nice dinner and some cocktails. (haha I guess this could be option 4)
Any opinions?
PS - Brendan, a post will come soon about the new Madden and my thoughts. =) I know you're all sitting on the edge of your seat for that one.
As the X-mas season is drawing near, there have been some informal discussions in terms of how we're handling X-mas gifts for everyone. I've kind of heard mixed reviews on what everyone wants to do, so I was hoping that this blogger would garner some opinions. From what it seems to me, gift giving is kind of a chore that people feel obligated to do and I know us in Pooky don't want to create that kind of atmosphere.
We could do 3 things:
1. Buy gifts as usual for everyone.
2. Not buy gifts and everyone be ok with it.
3. Have like a little gift exchange party of some sort.
Any of the 3 options are ok with me. I don't mind just buying for family this year as most of us have what we want in life in terms of tangible items (Me especially haha). If we don't spend money on each other, I would say maybe we can pull some dinero together and throw a little holiday shindig. Maybe a nice dinner and some cocktails. (haha I guess this could be option 4)
Any opinions?
PS - Brendan, a post will come soon about the new Madden and my thoughts. =) I know you're all sitting on the edge of your seat for that one.
Nov 25, 2005
In all this Xbox360 hype and shopping sprees, I think it is time to give a moment of silence for THE man. American-Japanese wouldn't be the same without him...
Mr. Miyagi has waxed on and off for the last time. I still think he should have won that Oscar and Golden Globe for the Karate Kid, but I guess they had to give it to the black people first. So in memory of Pat Morita..here are some quotes from Mr. Miyagi himself...of course I couldn't remember all of these by heart, but after reading them they made me proud to be American-Japanese...yeah...even though he didn't write it. Some are funny and some we can definetely take to heart.
Daniel: You think you could break a log like that?
Miyagi: Don't know. Never been attacked by a tree.
Miyagi: Daniel-san, never put passion before principle. Even if win, you lose.
Daniel: [presenting Miyagi with a rosewood display case, obviously for Miyagi's WW2 medals] I got something for you here... see, it's rosewood. For your medals. I thought it'd be nice to... like, show 'em off or something.
Miyagi: Why, Daniel-san... Thank you for gift. But why show off?
Daniel: Well, you know, winning the Medal of Honor and all... It says something about you. Like, you're brave. And all that stuff.
Miyagi: [puts hand to Daniel's chest] THIS say you brave.
[motions to medal]
Miyagi: This say you LUCKY.
Daniel: Just what did you do to earn this, anyhow?
Miyagi: ...Not important anymore.
Daniel: ...Was it scary for you?
Miyagi: ...Miyagi knees no stop shaking for whole week after.
Daniel: ...Did you have to kill a lot of people or something?
Miyagi: Hai, unfortunately.
Daniel: But they were, like, the enemy... weren't they?
Miyagi: They were also PEOPLE, Danielsan.
[At the cannery. Daniel has ripped his shirt, and almost gotten himself killed, while perfecting Miyagi's "Swinging Drum" maneuver]
Mr. Miyagi: Daniel-san, you all right?
Daniel: Yeah... I'm sorry; that was pretty stupid, wasn't it?
Mr. Miyagi: [with a grim smile] Miyagi say that to father when same thing happen. Father agree, was stupid. Father was right.
Daniel: Hey, what kind of belt do you have?
Miyagi: Canvas. JC Penny. Three ninety-eight. You like?
[laughs]
Daniel: No, I meant...
Miyagi: Daniel-san... karate here.
[he taps his head]
Miyagi: Karate here.
[he taps his heart]
Miyagi: Karate never here
[points to his belt]
Miyagi: Understand?
Daniel: You're the best friend I've ever had.
Miyagi: You pretty okay too.
Miyagi: Now, ready?
Daniel: I guess so.
Miyagi: [sighs] Daniel-san, must talk. Man walk on road. Walk left side, safe. Walk right side, safe. Walk down middle, sooner or later, get squished
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: just like grape. Same here. You karate do "yes," or karate do "no." You karate do "guess so,"
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: just like grape. Understand?
Daniel: Yeah, I understand.
Miyagi: Now, ready?
Daniel: Yeah, I'm ready.
Daniel: You could have killed him, couldn't you?
Mr. Miyagi: Aiy.
Daniel: Well, Why didn't you?
Mr. Miyagi: Because Daniel, for man with no forgiveness in heart, life worse punishment than death.
Thank you Pat Morita for talking in a memorable Japanese accent that all of white America thought you really had. I know you are in a better place where the flies just stick to hashi like they were shit.
Mr. Miyagi has waxed on and off for the last time. I still think he should have won that Oscar and Golden Globe for the Karate Kid, but I guess they had to give it to the black people first. So in memory of Pat Morita..here are some quotes from Mr. Miyagi himself...of course I couldn't remember all of these by heart, but after reading them they made me proud to be American-Japanese...yeah...even though he didn't write it. Some are funny and some we can definetely take to heart.
Daniel: You think you could break a log like that?
Miyagi: Don't know. Never been attacked by a tree.
Miyagi: Daniel-san, never put passion before principle. Even if win, you lose.
Daniel: [presenting Miyagi with a rosewood display case, obviously for Miyagi's WW2 medals] I got something for you here... see, it's rosewood. For your medals. I thought it'd be nice to... like, show 'em off or something.
Miyagi: Why, Daniel-san... Thank you for gift. But why show off?
Daniel: Well, you know, winning the Medal of Honor and all... It says something about you. Like, you're brave. And all that stuff.
Miyagi: [puts hand to Daniel's chest] THIS say you brave.
[motions to medal]
Miyagi: This say you LUCKY.
Daniel: Just what did you do to earn this, anyhow?
Miyagi: ...Not important anymore.
Daniel: ...Was it scary for you?
Miyagi: ...Miyagi knees no stop shaking for whole week after.
Daniel: ...Did you have to kill a lot of people or something?
Miyagi: Hai, unfortunately.
Daniel: But they were, like, the enemy... weren't they?
Miyagi: They were also PEOPLE, Danielsan.
[At the cannery. Daniel has ripped his shirt, and almost gotten himself killed, while perfecting Miyagi's "Swinging Drum" maneuver]
Mr. Miyagi: Daniel-san, you all right?
Daniel: Yeah... I'm sorry; that was pretty stupid, wasn't it?
Mr. Miyagi: [with a grim smile] Miyagi say that to father when same thing happen. Father agree, was stupid. Father was right.
Daniel: Hey, what kind of belt do you have?
Miyagi: Canvas. JC Penny. Three ninety-eight. You like?
[laughs]
Daniel: No, I meant...
Miyagi: Daniel-san... karate here.
[he taps his head]
Miyagi: Karate here.
[he taps his heart]
Miyagi: Karate never here
[points to his belt]
Miyagi: Understand?
Daniel: You're the best friend I've ever had.
Miyagi: You pretty okay too.
Miyagi: Now, ready?
Daniel: I guess so.
Miyagi: [sighs] Daniel-san, must talk. Man walk on road. Walk left side, safe. Walk right side, safe. Walk down middle, sooner or later, get squished
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: just like grape. Same here. You karate do "yes," or karate do "no." You karate do "guess so,"
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi: just like grape. Understand?
Daniel: Yeah, I understand.
Miyagi: Now, ready?
Daniel: Yeah, I'm ready.
Daniel: You could have killed him, couldn't you?
Mr. Miyagi: Aiy.
Daniel: Well, Why didn't you?
Mr. Miyagi: Because Daniel, for man with no forgiveness in heart, life worse punishment than death.
Thank you Pat Morita for talking in a memorable Japanese accent that all of white America thought you really had. I know you are in a better place where the flies just stick to hashi like they were shit.
Nov 17, 2005
Okay so this post is for Andy and Bryant (although I know Bryant said he couldn't wait in line because A.) He has a life and B.) He has no money at the moment. Both are good reasons and in fact are proof that he is smarter than us.)
Deciding where to get the Xbox360's. I know we started thinking about Target since it was be very close to home and around a lot of restaurants and such...HOWEVER after doing some research I have come up with the following. Perhaps this will help us in making an easier decision about where we wait...well "we" as in you finding the money. Do I hear Andy's Xmas gift coming in the form of currency? =)
So here goes...what I have found out...and it doesn't look like we got it too bad, but definetely enough to make me vomit about how M'soft is handling the situation...
STORE 851 (SANTANA ROW) - 38 PRO / 12 CORE SYSTEMS = 50 TOTAL
STORE 190 (BLOSSOM HILL) - 48 PRO / 14 CORE SYSTEMS = 62 TOTAL
STORE 685 (EL CAMINO) - 30 PRO / 10 CORE SYSTEMS = 40 TOTAL
STORE 142 (MILPITAS) - 54 PRO / 16 CORE SYSTEMS = 70 TOTAL
According to various websites reporting these findings...the give or take number is 5% of what it says on this list.
To give Andy an indication of if this shortage does indeed exist...Best Buy as a huge retailer is only getting 28,000 PROS / 14,000 CORES.
I will call soon to find out if any of these are doing a midnight launch...if that is the case then that actually fucks with our chances of getting one...I hope the price tag is enough to get people to wake up and say, "fuck that...I'm going back to bed." So the question is...if these Best Buys do a midnight launch...just when do you think we need to get out there? And also on a sidenote...it seems that they are handing out tickets, but again I will call to make sure about that. Lemme know what you think Captain.
Deciding where to get the Xbox360's. I know we started thinking about Target since it was be very close to home and around a lot of restaurants and such...HOWEVER after doing some research I have come up with the following. Perhaps this will help us in making an easier decision about where we wait...well "we" as in you finding the money. Do I hear Andy's Xmas gift coming in the form of currency? =)
So here goes...what I have found out...and it doesn't look like we got it too bad, but definetely enough to make me vomit about how M'soft is handling the situation...
STORE 851 (SANTANA ROW) - 38 PRO / 12 CORE SYSTEMS = 50 TOTAL
STORE 190 (BLOSSOM HILL) - 48 PRO / 14 CORE SYSTEMS = 62 TOTAL
STORE 685 (EL CAMINO) - 30 PRO / 10 CORE SYSTEMS = 40 TOTAL
STORE 142 (MILPITAS) - 54 PRO / 16 CORE SYSTEMS = 70 TOTAL
According to various websites reporting these findings...the give or take number is 5% of what it says on this list.
To give Andy an indication of if this shortage does indeed exist...Best Buy as a huge retailer is only getting 28,000 PROS / 14,000 CORES.
I will call soon to find out if any of these are doing a midnight launch...if that is the case then that actually fucks with our chances of getting one...I hope the price tag is enough to get people to wake up and say, "fuck that...I'm going back to bed." So the question is...if these Best Buys do a midnight launch...just when do you think we need to get out there? And also on a sidenote...it seems that they are handing out tickets, but again I will call to make sure about that. Lemme know what you think Captain.
Nov 11, 2005
Oh yeah, real quick...I was cleaning up my video game corner and went ahead and did an audit of my DVD's. So if you have any of these could you please just let me know that you have 'em. I don't need them back right away, but I would like to know where some of them are. AND yes and realize it is my fault for not keeping track of this shit.
BEFORE SUNRISE - I think Steve.
AFTER SUNSET - Steve again.
LADYKILLERS - Jonathan I think, but you might have given it back already.
MALENA - John Ho possibly. I can't think of anyone else that would borrow this.
RINGU - Jennifer (My cousin) I think.
THE STING - This is for sure Steve. =P "I already know how to drink!"
THREE KINGS - This could be Derek. Hell he might still have my Shrek...or Desiree does. Haha.
NINJA SCROLL - Mike I think. Again not sure.
Okay so if you have these titles OR ANY OTHER TITLE please just let me know so I can either A.) Know where they are at or B.) Write them off as losses. (And no Steve you can't say you don't have them so you can keep them.)
Quickly for the record...I have Kiki's Delivery Service from Sydnie and I also have Tae Guk Gi han cha hana ooooooh from Tony.
BEFORE SUNRISE - I think Steve.
AFTER SUNSET - Steve again.
LADYKILLERS - Jonathan I think, but you might have given it back already.
MALENA - John Ho possibly. I can't think of anyone else that would borrow this.
RINGU - Jennifer (My cousin) I think.
THE STING - This is for sure Steve. =P "I already know how to drink!"
THREE KINGS - This could be Derek. Hell he might still have my Shrek...or Desiree does. Haha.
NINJA SCROLL - Mike I think. Again not sure.
Okay so if you have these titles OR ANY OTHER TITLE please just let me know so I can either A.) Know where they are at or B.) Write them off as losses. (And no Steve you can't say you don't have them so you can keep them.)
Quickly for the record...I have Kiki's Delivery Service from Sydnie and I also have Tae Guk Gi han cha hana ooooooh from Tony.
So you have probably noticed that I changed my icon. Of course this isn't the look of any of my drawings, but I got a little frisky last night while painting. What is that you say? Where are the other people's icons? Well that is one of the perks of being able to draw...you can change your icon whenever you want. So there.
Some quick notes.
Guitar Hero rocks. I'm not good at music games. Hell I'm not good at music in general in terms of finding the beat or whatever you musicians call such things. Steve royally served me up something raw on the game last night. I told him it was because I was spending all fucking day working on his shit that I couldn't work on my guitar skills. He might have fell for it if he didn't come into my room when I was sleeping...especially when I was supposed to be working on his shit. Bottom line: This game is very cool and it is even better if you actually throw away your pride and start actually rocking out. So while Steve had the higher scores...I was getting all the dirty underwear thrown at me. Smelly and satisfactory.
Poker. I'm going to get one thing clear right now. Should I move up stakes? Sure, I do feel confident enough to step up to 6-12 or even 5-10 online. And everyone else thinks that I should move up. Well that is all find and dandy except for the fact that my bankroll won't allow it right now. So you might be asking what happens to all my winnings? Well besides these two brand spanking new monitors being driven by a ultra crazy graphics card...a lot of what I made during college went pretty much to college. Gas. Books. Some tuition. Film fees. Also you only hear about my winnings. It is not that I'm trying to hide the fact that I lose. Shit...who doesn't lose? It's more that I don't work enough hours at Noah's even though I could easily pick up hours. Also I still owe my 'rents money and they are starting to think I won't pay them back ever. I'll write that check soon...hopefully. So the bottom line is that I won't move up until I am squared away with my numbers. Quick Update: Played in a 20 dollar NLHE tournament w/ 240ish players. Finished 35 which cashed.
The Disneyland trip seems to be coming together. I will send off one more email to confirm the time of departure, where to meet and so on. For all those that are going, thank you for being patient with me. As you can probably tell, I don't organize trips that much because I suck. So stick with me for a little longer...I promise we'll have fun...well...I'll at least have fun.
Ricki put up a picture of her and her girlfriend on Myspace. I was going to write something mean, but then he might look and then I'd be afraid he would see me in a different light. Haha. So if you got time, leave a comment saying she deserves better and that she should listen to Foo Fighters "Best of You" song. Also throw in that she should cut my hair. It's the least she can do since she is getting a dope ass Xmas present this year. (Yeah, we are going to forget about all those other times she cut my hair for free.)
I finshed a half gallon of milk and almost 1 and half boxes of cereal in like 3 meals. Cereal is awesome.
I decided that perhaps after I pay off these screens...it is time to buy a laptop. I would really like to keep this main computer offline as much as possible...except when I use Steam. Other than that I would really like a laptop. I looked online and I probably won't settle for anything less than an Alienware. Of course when I built mine online...it seemed like it would be faster than my dual Xeons. That and the price came out to 4K. I can't really seem myself spending that much on a laptop...well I can...but you know.
Going to Fresno on Sunday. Won't be helping out Shannon since it seems in her desperation and Tony's advertising emails..she has enough people. Besides Steve, Jonathan and I need to get this website done so I can play Guitar Hero and hit up Garden City to extract my revenge on those bastards.
Some quick notes.
Guitar Hero rocks. I'm not good at music games. Hell I'm not good at music in general in terms of finding the beat or whatever you musicians call such things. Steve royally served me up something raw on the game last night. I told him it was because I was spending all fucking day working on his shit that I couldn't work on my guitar skills. He might have fell for it if he didn't come into my room when I was sleeping...especially when I was supposed to be working on his shit. Bottom line: This game is very cool and it is even better if you actually throw away your pride and start actually rocking out. So while Steve had the higher scores...I was getting all the dirty underwear thrown at me. Smelly and satisfactory.
Poker. I'm going to get one thing clear right now. Should I move up stakes? Sure, I do feel confident enough to step up to 6-12 or even 5-10 online. And everyone else thinks that I should move up. Well that is all find and dandy except for the fact that my bankroll won't allow it right now. So you might be asking what happens to all my winnings? Well besides these two brand spanking new monitors being driven by a ultra crazy graphics card...a lot of what I made during college went pretty much to college. Gas. Books. Some tuition. Film fees. Also you only hear about my winnings. It is not that I'm trying to hide the fact that I lose. Shit...who doesn't lose? It's more that I don't work enough hours at Noah's even though I could easily pick up hours. Also I still owe my 'rents money and they are starting to think I won't pay them back ever. I'll write that check soon...hopefully. So the bottom line is that I won't move up until I am squared away with my numbers. Quick Update: Played in a 20 dollar NLHE tournament w/ 240ish players. Finished 35 which cashed.
The Disneyland trip seems to be coming together. I will send off one more email to confirm the time of departure, where to meet and so on. For all those that are going, thank you for being patient with me. As you can probably tell, I don't organize trips that much because I suck. So stick with me for a little longer...I promise we'll have fun...well...I'll at least have fun.
Ricki put up a picture of her and her girlfriend on Myspace. I was going to write something mean, but then he might look and then I'd be afraid he would see me in a different light. Haha. So if you got time, leave a comment saying she deserves better and that she should listen to Foo Fighters "Best of You" song. Also throw in that she should cut my hair. It's the least she can do since she is getting a dope ass Xmas present this year. (Yeah, we are going to forget about all those other times she cut my hair for free.)
I finshed a half gallon of milk and almost 1 and half boxes of cereal in like 3 meals. Cereal is awesome.
I decided that perhaps after I pay off these screens...it is time to buy a laptop. I would really like to keep this main computer offline as much as possible...except when I use Steam. Other than that I would really like a laptop. I looked online and I probably won't settle for anything less than an Alienware. Of course when I built mine online...it seemed like it would be faster than my dual Xeons. That and the price came out to 4K. I can't really seem myself spending that much on a laptop...well I can...but you know.
Going to Fresno on Sunday. Won't be helping out Shannon since it seems in her desperation and Tony's advertising emails..she has enough people. Besides Steve, Jonathan and I need to get this website done so I can play Guitar Hero and hit up Garden City to extract my revenge on those bastards.
Nov 10, 2005
Okay since we are getting into a debate about the Niners, I will say something that we will all agree with.
Jamal Lewis is a bitch.
With that loving statement I will switch gears a bit. My family will be very thankful that you guys all send your best wishes. It truly is a frustrating situation and I'm not even in Fresno. We will stay strong and hopefully everything will work out for the best.
Jamal Lewis is a bitch.
With that loving statement I will switch gears a bit. My family will be very thankful that you guys all send your best wishes. It truly is a frustrating situation and I'm not even in Fresno. We will stay strong and hopefully everything will work out for the best.
Nov 9, 2005
Since I have nothing better to do, I will just write a couple things:
-See our posts again about the 49ers inept offense. Yes they're bad, yes they can't score, but there' s a reason. You can't compare Barlow with Alexander or Westbrook because they're on teams that are more mature on offense and that have proven weapons that defenses need to be aware of. The 49ers have no weapons except maybe Barlow, but his ineffectiveness is partly due to his O-line and lack of any serious threats on offense. So the defense stacks the line with everybody to kill the run and the 49ers have proven week to week that the passing game isn't a threat. Maybe the 49ers just aren't calling the right plays, but once again a team needs the right personnel to run an offensive scheme. This year is a trial year for Mr. Nolan and his O-Coordinator McCarthy to look at their roster, see how they fit the system and adjust next year. I guarantee the 49ers will be noticeably better next year.
-50 million is a lot, but that's not the 49ers fault. The pro market that is out there and the bar that was set last year by Manning setup what market value is for a 1st overall pick QB. Manning last year got 40 - 48 million dollars and as every year the market goes up, so do salaries. That's why T.O. wants a raise because the market for top WR is toppled year to year and he wants to make sure he's on top. You want pro sports to stop paying millions to players that aren't worth it? Tell all the fans to boycott games and make sports revenue go down.
Look at hockey as a good example. Fans weren't coming, revenues sank, therefore players who used to average 10 million a year, now have to settle for 4 - 5 being the top salary. Of course this wasn't planned, but it still paints a picture of what needs to happen.
For the record, I said at best the 49ers could be 8-8, but I had a more realistic vision that they would actually win 4 - 5 games.
Sorry for another post, but sports debates are one of the few in Pooky that I can actually participate in with facts/data to back me up vs. my usual bullshit. =)
-See our posts again about the 49ers inept offense. Yes they're bad, yes they can't score, but there' s a reason. You can't compare Barlow with Alexander or Westbrook because they're on teams that are more mature on offense and that have proven weapons that defenses need to be aware of. The 49ers have no weapons except maybe Barlow, but his ineffectiveness is partly due to his O-line and lack of any serious threats on offense. So the defense stacks the line with everybody to kill the run and the 49ers have proven week to week that the passing game isn't a threat. Maybe the 49ers just aren't calling the right plays, but once again a team needs the right personnel to run an offensive scheme. This year is a trial year for Mr. Nolan and his O-Coordinator McCarthy to look at their roster, see how they fit the system and adjust next year. I guarantee the 49ers will be noticeably better next year.
-50 million is a lot, but that's not the 49ers fault. The pro market that is out there and the bar that was set last year by Manning setup what market value is for a 1st overall pick QB. Manning last year got 40 - 48 million dollars and as every year the market goes up, so do salaries. That's why T.O. wants a raise because the market for top WR is toppled year to year and he wants to make sure he's on top. You want pro sports to stop paying millions to players that aren't worth it? Tell all the fans to boycott games and make sports revenue go down.
Look at hockey as a good example. Fans weren't coming, revenues sank, therefore players who used to average 10 million a year, now have to settle for 4 - 5 being the top salary. Of course this wasn't planned, but it still paints a picture of what needs to happen.
For the record, I said at best the 49ers could be 8-8, but I had a more realistic vision that they would actually win 4 - 5 games.
Sorry for another post, but sports debates are one of the few in Pooky that I can actually participate in with facts/data to back me up vs. my usual bullshit. =)
As the Horiuchi and the Tazumi family are as close to a 2nd family as a guy could have, keep your head up in these tough times. Things happen for a reason and they will unfold over time.
Now as a real reason for my post...
As a Niner fan, I'm sick of everyone thinking that the 49ers were supposed to return to glory this year. If you've really paid attention to the games, you'll noticed they are 10x's better then they were last year. Does there record reflect it? Not at all.
Things to note:
To TRUE Niner fans, I say be patient. There were some years where management fucked up the team and it takes some time to repair. We are very spoiled with the teams with had in the 80's and 90's and we take that for granted. I think this is a HUGE problem with Bay Area fans in that we support the teams in the "good," but we do not support them in the bad. Look at the Giants attendance this year as case in point. Warriors and Sharks are the same. Oakland is a anomoly since they've been good and still no one attends.
There is a reason to be optimistic is my case in point. The reality is the Niners are terrible and they should be 0 - 8 right now, so the fact that they're 2-6 shows that there is some light to this season. Keep building, get some free agents and they may have something special. I don't see the Niners being a playoff team for at least 2 more seasons, so get ready for a rocky ride.
Give the kid some slack, look at past history and just know the odds are kind of against the 49ers against Smith being great, but politics and the fact that the draft this year wasn't "that good" made them choose Smith.
Ok, 49er love over....
Now as a real reason for my post...
As a Niner fan, I'm sick of everyone thinking that the 49ers were supposed to return to glory this year. If you've really paid attention to the games, you'll noticed they are 10x's better then they were last year. Does there record reflect it? Not at all.
Things to note:
- In the media, they have a way more positive outlook then they have had in years. Though they are losing, they don't let that get them down. The last few years under Erickson, they had no passion, no faith, no drive. Nolan has really instilled a better attitude to these dudes.
- The team is essentially the same as last year with the addition of Alex Smith. What rookie has REALLY had success in his first year? You can say Rothlisberger (sp), but who can you name besides him? Marino? That was like 20 years ago, so point being is that QB's aren't usually successful in their first years. Shit, Aikman was winless his first year, Peyton won 1 game in his, so what are you really expecting? Getting rid of Rattay allowed the kid to get some game exposure. We all know Rattay wasn't happy anyway, so it works out for the best for both parties.
- Their O-Line is terrible. Look @ David Carr in Texas. Dude, can't do shit because he's getting sacked like 6 - 7 times a game. I think last I heard, he's projected to get sacked 100+ times. No QB can be successful getting hit, having that much pressure and no time to throw.
- A rookie QB is going to have a hard time if there is no running game. Barlow not hitting holes fast enough, OL being bad, and no WR threat = no respect for the passing game, so the Defense constantly puts up 8 - 9 man fronts. Puts a lot of pressure on a rookie QB to try and gain respect with virtually no weapons.
- The 49ers lost their best receiver in Eric Johnson. The dude caught 85ish balls last year and that's huge loss. I think I can count the # of balls the TE's caught this year on both my hands.
- Injuries - every team has them. But with a team that has just gotten over the salary cap "hell" that Terry Donahue has put them in, there wasn't really a chance to create depth. So the Niners are signing Joe Shmoe's off the street to play.
- For the most part, their Def is getting better week to week. Look @ the number of sacks they're getting, the pressure they're putting on the QBs, and stopping the running game. They were rough around the edges the first few weeks, but you can see week to week they're starting to play together as a team. The last few years, you definitely didn't see this. Bryant Young is playing like a mad man.
- They're one of the youngest teams in the league. Look at their veterans - Bryant Young and Johnnie Morton are the only ones that are in double digits in terms of years of service. A team needs more experience before they can get better.
To TRUE Niner fans, I say be patient. There were some years where management fucked up the team and it takes some time to repair. We are very spoiled with the teams with had in the 80's and 90's and we take that for granted. I think this is a HUGE problem with Bay Area fans in that we support the teams in the "good," but we do not support them in the bad. Look at the Giants attendance this year as case in point. Warriors and Sharks are the same. Oakland is a anomoly since they've been good and still no one attends.
There is a reason to be optimistic is my case in point. The reality is the Niners are terrible and they should be 0 - 8 right now, so the fact that they're 2-6 shows that there is some light to this season. Keep building, get some free agents and they may have something special. I don't see the Niners being a playoff team for at least 2 more seasons, so get ready for a rocky ride.
Give the kid some slack, look at past history and just know the odds are kind of against the 49ers against Smith being great, but politics and the fact that the draft this year wasn't "that good" made them choose Smith.
Ok, 49er love over....
Nov 6, 2005
My family and I got back from Fresno yesterday for a quick day trip. We got off to a late start because I didn't go to bed until about 7ish in the morning. We got to Fresno at around 1:00 I think and I got an awesome surprise of seeing my cousin Nicole. She's been in the ATL chill'n with all the black folk I guess. Anyways it has been a while since I've seen her so it was nice hearing her laugh again. Unfortunately her trip back to California wasn't a vacation.
For those who don't know or who I haven't updated in the past week, my cousin Michael's daughter, has been in the hospital for the past week and half or so. I guess last Sunday she was up in the morning running around the house in good spirits when suddenly she stopped in her tracks and started to have seizures. To make a long story short, she is hooked up to more monitors and tubes than I have ever seen in my life. I've seen older people in the hospital and I hate that, but going into that ICU room really made me dizzy. It's a sight that I hope none of you have to go through. I whispered to her that I'll be thinking about her and I told her to get better soon because she has a huge family that loves her. This is the first time in a long time where I've really choked up. As I walked out of that ICU room I looked back one more time and had a thought that I wanted to share with all of you.
This might come off as an attacking statement to all my friends who I take the time to listen to...but you can bet your ass that I mean myself also.
In these types of situations you almost have no control of what the outcome is. Sometimes you have to wait things out and see what happens. This is both taxing and frustrating and I have the upmost respect for my family in times like these and how we are all able to stay in high spirits. I just wanted you to remember that these are situations that you cannot control...these are situations that you should be frustrated over. DO NOT magnify problems so much that you feel you have no control over anything. Take control of the situations that you can instead of feeling sorry for yourself...because when these types of problems like the one above comes up you will feel like an ass for complaining about stupid shit...that is the thought I had when I looked back at the ICU room. Yeah...I understand that it is all relative...at least until you are put into a similiar predicament that my cousin is in.
For those who don't know or who I haven't updated in the past week, my cousin Michael's daughter, has been in the hospital for the past week and half or so. I guess last Sunday she was up in the morning running around the house in good spirits when suddenly she stopped in her tracks and started to have seizures. To make a long story short, she is hooked up to more monitors and tubes than I have ever seen in my life. I've seen older people in the hospital and I hate that, but going into that ICU room really made me dizzy. It's a sight that I hope none of you have to go through. I whispered to her that I'll be thinking about her and I told her to get better soon because she has a huge family that loves her. This is the first time in a long time where I've really choked up. As I walked out of that ICU room I looked back one more time and had a thought that I wanted to share with all of you.
This might come off as an attacking statement to all my friends who I take the time to listen to...but you can bet your ass that I mean myself also.
In these types of situations you almost have no control of what the outcome is. Sometimes you have to wait things out and see what happens. This is both taxing and frustrating and I have the upmost respect for my family in times like these and how we are all able to stay in high spirits. I just wanted you to remember that these are situations that you cannot control...these are situations that you should be frustrated over. DO NOT magnify problems so much that you feel you have no control over anything. Take control of the situations that you can instead of feeling sorry for yourself...because when these types of problems like the one above comes up you will feel like an ass for complaining about stupid shit...that is the thought I had when I looked back at the ICU room. Yeah...I understand that it is all relative...at least until you are put into a similiar predicament that my cousin is in.
Nov 2, 2005
Okay so Steve came over to work on his homework. I guess getting a Master's degree is comprised of Winning 11 Soccer and FEAR. When we booted up FEAR we were prompted to download the new update.
Well this update sucks. It froze my computer. It even went as far as to slow down the competition (Half Life 2) by making everything all clunky and flickery. After multiple passes at the options screens trying to get things working right...I came to the realization that it just might be my graphics card. Now I don't know about you...but I spent a lot of money on this graphics card and when something in your computer doesn't work right (especially something like your graphics card) you can't help but not think about it until you get it fixed. So since Steve was here and he was able to clean up my computer before in the past, I let him have a go again at the graphics card so he can continue on his quest to conquer FEAR.
Steve started with the usual HijackThis, Ad-aware and Spybot, but then he went to some other website to check for viruses on my computer. Needless to say I think that I've learned my lesson...and as soon as I get a legit copy of Windows (I'm not saying I'm going legit on everything...who has money for such programs except for Jonathan) I'm going to invest in some protection against online people. In fact when my monitors and graphics card gets paid off...I am going to build a mini tower that is just for online work. Strictly online and nothing else. This computer which cost me a lot of money is going to be offline if all goes well. You might be saying I'm a little paranoid. I mean all you guys have protection and everything is fine...well here you go...
Man...that is a lot of viruses. It isn't funny, but Steve and I couldn't help but giggle like when the girl doctor touched my balls...the only legal prostitution I've ever been a part of...weird how I went in for a cut finger though...enjoy me being naive about internet security.
Well this update sucks. It froze my computer. It even went as far as to slow down the competition (Half Life 2) by making everything all clunky and flickery. After multiple passes at the options screens trying to get things working right...I came to the realization that it just might be my graphics card. Now I don't know about you...but I spent a lot of money on this graphics card and when something in your computer doesn't work right (especially something like your graphics card) you can't help but not think about it until you get it fixed. So since Steve was here and he was able to clean up my computer before in the past, I let him have a go again at the graphics card so he can continue on his quest to conquer FEAR.
Steve started with the usual HijackThis, Ad-aware and Spybot, but then he went to some other website to check for viruses on my computer. Needless to say I think that I've learned my lesson...and as soon as I get a legit copy of Windows (I'm not saying I'm going legit on everything...who has money for such programs except for Jonathan) I'm going to invest in some protection against online people. In fact when my monitors and graphics card gets paid off...I am going to build a mini tower that is just for online work. Strictly online and nothing else. This computer which cost me a lot of money is going to be offline if all goes well. You might be saying I'm a little paranoid. I mean all you guys have protection and everything is fine...well here you go...
Man...that is a lot of viruses. It isn't funny, but Steve and I couldn't help but giggle like when the girl doctor touched my balls...the only legal prostitution I've ever been a part of...weird how I went in for a cut finger though...enjoy me being naive about internet security.
Oct 30, 2005
Oct 19, 2005
Damn, is it already X-mas time?
Give em' if you want to, I'll do the same. No guilt. =)
Perhaps a suggestion would be taking the money we would spend on each other and just throw a party. Dinner party and have people come over for drinks later or something. And with that we could play one of those gift exchange games or something.
Or we take the money we would spend on each and just plan another trip together...
Give em' if you want to, I'll do the same. No guilt. =)
Perhaps a suggestion would be taking the money we would spend on each other and just throw a party. Dinner party and have people come over for drinks later or something. And with that we could play one of those gift exchange games or something.
Or we take the money we would spend on each and just plan another trip together...
Oct 18, 2005
Oct 14, 2005
Oct 12, 2005
Since I don't have any type of website right now...you guys get nothing put pictures on Pooky. Since no one has complained thus far...I'm going to keep posting pictures whenever it is necessary. So if any of you guys care...
I seriously think my mind is rejuvenated. For the first time in months, I plugged in the tablet and did something with it. This picture might look somewhat familiar...I took it from Eecs's trip. Just a quick painting...1 hour spent on it. And boy did it feel good to paint...=P
Oct 10, 2005
Okay so first thing is first...This ride right here is like crack. Ricki was up about 50K points until I went on a massive comeback by what she says was "cheating". For those who don't know...you shoot your gun at a shitload of targets (it is up to you which ones you want to shoot) and you can also rotate your car. So Ricki was shooting a target because it was close to her, but then I turned the car around so I was in her previous position! Man that was awesome. I don't know about you guys, but I have a feeling that a couple of Koreans on our Disneyland trip will want to go on this thing over and over and over...so they can try to beat me. The crazy thing about this game is that it is connected over the internet. So people playing at home can somehow give you a higher score depending on the target that you shoot. This ride/game is really, really awesome. I'm probably over hyping it, but if you have any ounce of competitive nature then you will really dig this ride. Disneyland just might be getting back on track after years of neglect...we'll see.
We all know how much I love Disneyland. Steve still probably doesn't understand it! =P Don't get me wrong...Vegas is probably the shit, but Disneyland has too many memories and too many inspirations to change my view...
Well after that long rant about not having any motivation might have just been a lack of relaxation. How? I fucking relax all the time...but the key thing is that I still have to work at a Bagel shop...and perhaps I have become so dependant on my Disney trips that I need it now in order to function properly. I didn't even get on all our usual rides, but just sitting there on a bench, waiting in line and eating good food without any real life worries is just what I needed. After being completely surrounded by the sites, sounds and smell of Disneyland I have become at least mentally rejuvinated. For the first time in a long time I am looking forward to things to come...
Sounds bullshit doesn't it? I mean after such a dramatic, crying blog there is no way I could possibly feel any different than how I was before. Well I'm telling that for me that is the power of Disneyland.
Call Disneyland childish. Call Disneyland boring because it doesn't have thrill to thrill coasters. Call Disneyland too crowded. Call it overpriced. But what you cannot say is that people don't revert to being kids again. Even for that 2:56 seconds that Indy lasts...everyone reverts back to when days were long and nothing could stop them from dreaming BIG.
After spending time away with my family and seeing my sister surviving on her own and making her cry out in laughter has given me the energy to dream BIG again.
What a good fucking trip...and I cannot wait to share that with those that are going!
Oct 8, 2005
Oct 7, 2005
So I'm off to LA, but before I go...
Hope your party goes good. I'm kinda bummed that you couldn't just wait one more week...haha! Anyway have a kick ass time and I'll talk to you guys soon...unless the LA fires eat me up and sends me back to the place from which I spawned.
I'm off to Disneyland where I'll get two things accomplished. See what is different from the last time I have went (which has been too long) to see if I can plan our trip better (email coming soon) and also to return to the place that pretty much started my inspiration in art. People wonder why I like Disneyland so much...sure it might be old, not for the older crowd, but the bottom line is that without Disneyland and Disney in general, I'm not sure if I would be on the creative tip. (Or lack thereof as of late)
Also for Andy who asks for things then bitches about it later. Funny how he can read 200 pages of Grand Theft Auto Strategy guide, but can't read the dramatic shit going on in my life! Haha! So here we go...my theme park...one of two projects in the works. These first screens are from my Disneyland in RollerCoasterTycoon 3. Enjoy Captain...because when I got back I got another smokin' picture of Kristin. =P
Hope your party goes good. I'm kinda bummed that you couldn't just wait one more week...haha! Anyway have a kick ass time and I'll talk to you guys soon...unless the LA fires eat me up and sends me back to the place from which I spawned.
I'm off to Disneyland where I'll get two things accomplished. See what is different from the last time I have went (which has been too long) to see if I can plan our trip better (email coming soon) and also to return to the place that pretty much started my inspiration in art. People wonder why I like Disneyland so much...sure it might be old, not for the older crowd, but the bottom line is that without Disneyland and Disney in general, I'm not sure if I would be on the creative tip. (Or lack thereof as of late)
Also for Andy who asks for things then bitches about it later. Funny how he can read 200 pages of Grand Theft Auto Strategy guide, but can't read the dramatic shit going on in my life! Haha! So here we go...my theme park...one of two projects in the works. These first screens are from my Disneyland in RollerCoasterTycoon 3. Enjoy Captain...because when I got back I got another smokin' picture of Kristin. =P
Oct 4, 2005
So I hadn't heard from anyone really about the Halo game, but we should really set one up.
Girls
I think I was in a very similar situation as Tony in terms of where I used to be. From 6th grade until Senior year of high school, I would say most of my really good friends/people I talked with a lot were girls. I don't know what happened in college, but I guess I found the closest thing which was Kevin.
Right now, I think I'm relatively friendly to any new person that I meet regardless of whether it's a boy or girl. For the most part, I like meeting new people, but as it stands right now, I barely see my good friends M - F, so taking the effort to get to know someone new is almost out of the question.
I think I essentially have the same outlook as Tony except I'm a little more political about it. Some jest that my most friendliest award in high school was a sham, which could be true, but the outside world never has to know who I really am! Essentially the differences with the situations below, I would most likely listen to the girl that was having problems even though I wouldn't necessarily want to, I wouldn't flip a girl that slapped me, and I wouldn't toss two girls around like rag dolls. The cool difference between me and Tony is that he has the balls to do something like that.
I hope this didn't start because Steve said he would fear introducing you to a girl more then any of us. haha
Brendan was always my first fear because I know the human psyche is kind of a game to him, so he just wants new people to play with. Unfortunately for me, my girls were always the pawns of his evil destruction. =)
I think a girl meeting us all together is the best way for them to find out if they want to stick around. We all have an interesting dynamic with each other - we can be offensive, sarcastic, rude when we're together. But once a person understands it's all in good fun and we're just that comfortable around each other, the sky's the limit. Imagine being in front of a girl while Brendan and Kevin are talking about playing with each other magic balls...if she sticks around, she's a keeper. haha or has some weird fetish....
Hope and Fate
You guys can call it bullshit, but I believe there is a reason for a lot of things that occur in our world that can't be explained. I like to think I have control of my life, but sometimes things happen so coincidentally that it just makes you wonder. Sometimes I think, what really drove me to choose this direction, was I meant to choose this route?
You can disregard this and call me crazy since I think more about random things and panic more then any of you combined minus Steve. =)
But seriously, there have been a lot of decisions that I've made, some good, some bad, but sometimes I just get that feeling inside that I was supposed to choose a path for a reason. Especially with all the pain I was in and have been in through out the years, those emotions were uncontrollable. All the hard work you do, all the pain you go through, all the trials that we go through in life have to be for some reason beyond just plain ol' happiness, right? haha
Why do I feel like there has to be a reason for it? Dunno, but perhaps I'll find out one day what all the pain I went through was for...
Motivation
What drives any of us to where we are today?
Sometimes I wonder what if I didn't hooked up at IBM? Where would I be? I made absolutely no effort to find another job once I found out I had IBM. Was I curious about what other opportunities were out there? Sure, but it wasn't enough to drive me away from the "easy" route.
Reading Brendan's post, I kind of wonder if I would be in the same rut if I had no idea where I want to go (granted I don't have his "talents" and "skills"), but I wonder if I would feel just as lost.
This kind of goes with the above about Fate, though I don't LOVE my job, I tolerate it and I tend to like it about 90% of the time. Some people were meant to have a desk job and I think I was definitely one of them.
So the creative juices ain't flowin' yet huh? My advice to someone is kind of a cliche. Go to a beach, watch a sunset, go to the top of a hill and watch the city at night, take a hike, go camping, go to Monterey again, go travel somewhere where you may get inspired. The things I described are everyday things in my life that I find beautiful and if I ever felt uninspired I would think about doing such things. Go see the beauty that life provides and hopefully something sparks in your head where you can put something down on paper. I don't know how your creativity worked before, if it does work by staying at home watching movies, playing videogames, etc. then keep at it. I understand creativity just doesn't grow on trees and takes some time.
Just know, I wouldn't worry about it. I think you know that all of us believe in you and for the most part, I think you know that we don't really worry about you in the sense that we all know that you'll be successful at whatever you do.
Am I still the house that gets the door to door salesmen? If so, that is awesome!
Girls
I think I was in a very similar situation as Tony in terms of where I used to be. From 6th grade until Senior year of high school, I would say most of my really good friends/people I talked with a lot were girls. I don't know what happened in college, but I guess I found the closest thing which was Kevin.
Right now, I think I'm relatively friendly to any new person that I meet regardless of whether it's a boy or girl. For the most part, I like meeting new people, but as it stands right now, I barely see my good friends M - F, so taking the effort to get to know someone new is almost out of the question.
I think I essentially have the same outlook as Tony except I'm a little more political about it. Some jest that my most friendliest award in high school was a sham, which could be true, but the outside world never has to know who I really am! Essentially the differences with the situations below, I would most likely listen to the girl that was having problems even though I wouldn't necessarily want to, I wouldn't flip a girl that slapped me, and I wouldn't toss two girls around like rag dolls. The cool difference between me and Tony is that he has the balls to do something like that.
I hope this didn't start because Steve said he would fear introducing you to a girl more then any of us. haha
Brendan was always my first fear because I know the human psyche is kind of a game to him, so he just wants new people to play with. Unfortunately for me, my girls were always the pawns of his evil destruction. =)
I think a girl meeting us all together is the best way for them to find out if they want to stick around. We all have an interesting dynamic with each other - we can be offensive, sarcastic, rude when we're together. But once a person understands it's all in good fun and we're just that comfortable around each other, the sky's the limit. Imagine being in front of a girl while Brendan and Kevin are talking about playing with each other magic balls...if she sticks around, she's a keeper. haha or has some weird fetish....
Hope and Fate
You guys can call it bullshit, but I believe there is a reason for a lot of things that occur in our world that can't be explained. I like to think I have control of my life, but sometimes things happen so coincidentally that it just makes you wonder. Sometimes I think, what really drove me to choose this direction, was I meant to choose this route?
You can disregard this and call me crazy since I think more about random things and panic more then any of you combined minus Steve. =)
But seriously, there have been a lot of decisions that I've made, some good, some bad, but sometimes I just get that feeling inside that I was supposed to choose a path for a reason. Especially with all the pain I was in and have been in through out the years, those emotions were uncontrollable. All the hard work you do, all the pain you go through, all the trials that we go through in life have to be for some reason beyond just plain ol' happiness, right? haha
Why do I feel like there has to be a reason for it? Dunno, but perhaps I'll find out one day what all the pain I went through was for...
Motivation
What drives any of us to where we are today?
Sometimes I wonder what if I didn't hooked up at IBM? Where would I be? I made absolutely no effort to find another job once I found out I had IBM. Was I curious about what other opportunities were out there? Sure, but it wasn't enough to drive me away from the "easy" route.
Reading Brendan's post, I kind of wonder if I would be in the same rut if I had no idea where I want to go (granted I don't have his "talents" and "skills"), but I wonder if I would feel just as lost.
This kind of goes with the above about Fate, though I don't LOVE my job, I tolerate it and I tend to like it about 90% of the time. Some people were meant to have a desk job and I think I was definitely one of them.
So the creative juices ain't flowin' yet huh? My advice to someone is kind of a cliche. Go to a beach, watch a sunset, go to the top of a hill and watch the city at night, take a hike, go camping, go to Monterey again, go travel somewhere where you may get inspired. The things I described are everyday things in my life that I find beautiful and if I ever felt uninspired I would think about doing such things. Go see the beauty that life provides and hopefully something sparks in your head where you can put something down on paper. I don't know how your creativity worked before, if it does work by staying at home watching movies, playing videogames, etc. then keep at it. I understand creativity just doesn't grow on trees and takes some time.
Just know, I wouldn't worry about it. I think you know that all of us believe in you and for the most part, I think you know that we don't really worry about you in the sense that we all know that you'll be successful at whatever you do.
Am I still the house that gets the door to door salesmen? If so, that is awesome!
btw, i was looking at old posts, when i used to post more often on here, i found this hilarious...
so i posted in one of my posts:
" And all the critics that said that "Full Circle" sucked or was the biggest disappoint ever can suck my dick." -Monday, March 3 2003
and in the following post, Jon said:
"Full Circle sucked and was the biggest disappointment ever. Now let’s have at that dick."
-Tuesday, March 4 2003
Here's another thing Jon wrote about me. This was after i went off on after brendan told us about the Tomo's drama, and i said that i would kick anyone's ass who fucks with my friends. This is Jon's follow up to that post (I seriously laughed out loud at the part about "the sixth sense":
"Steve, it’s nice to see how violently loyal you are to your friends. I’ve gotta warn whoever’s out there even thinking about doing something to piss this guy off. He may seem happy now, what with a girl and APhiO, but he’s got years of rage in reserves… he can just imagine me not holding cookies or some other petty kid shiet, and BAM part of your face is missing and the sixth sense is two beyond what you’ve got. Kids will be reading about it in history books: The Trail of Ears, from San Diego to Fresno. And those kids will be crying." -Friday, March 14 2003
okay okay one more!!! This one is long. i'm only posting the whole thing so you guys dont have to click back. Anyways, read this analogy made Jon made about girls and jeans, and he also mentioned something abour fate, destiny at the end, for more relevent goodness:
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BRING UP THE CAT?????? =*(
Sorry for quoting Jon so much, but maybe if you fuckers wrote something more interesting I'd quote you too! JK. stop crying.
As i was reading through the old posts, it would seem that i was a lot better at writing (and more witty) when i was pissed off. Damn. Guess i should piss myself off more often. Fuck this happy shit!
holy shit the sun is coming up. time for bed!
so i posted in one of my posts:
" And all the critics that said that "Full Circle" sucked or was the biggest disappoint ever can suck my dick." -Monday, March 3 2003
and in the following post, Jon said:
"Full Circle sucked and was the biggest disappointment ever. Now let’s have at that dick."
-Tuesday, March 4 2003
Here's another thing Jon wrote about me. This was after i went off on after brendan told us about the Tomo's drama, and i said that i would kick anyone's ass who fucks with my friends. This is Jon's follow up to that post (I seriously laughed out loud at the part about "the sixth sense":
"Steve, it’s nice to see how violently loyal you are to your friends. I’ve gotta warn whoever’s out there even thinking about doing something to piss this guy off. He may seem happy now, what with a girl and APhiO, but he’s got years of rage in reserves… he can just imagine me not holding cookies or some other petty kid shiet, and BAM part of your face is missing and the sixth sense is two beyond what you’ve got. Kids will be reading about it in history books: The Trail of Ears, from San Diego to Fresno. And those kids will be crying." -Friday, March 14 2003
okay okay one more!!! This one is long. i'm only posting the whole thing so you guys dont have to click back. Anyways, read this analogy made Jon made about girls and jeans, and he also mentioned something abour fate, destiny at the end, for more relevent goodness:
The question I raised with Bryant was not about settling in general. I agree there’s no truly perfect match, and you might always wonder about other possibilities. I was making a distinction between (a) taking risks to pursue what you really want, and (b) waiting for something to come to you.-Weds, april 16, 2003
If you’re still not getting it, here’s an analogy:
Shopping.
For jeans.
You have ideas of what you want: style, color, size… and you know it must be available somewhere. All you have to do is go out to some stores and look. The risk? Maybe they won’t have your size. Maybe they’ll be black when you want blue. When this happens, sure, it’ll hurt like hell and you’ll cry, but eventually you get over it and try another store. If you keep trying, eventually you’ll find your fit. Because come on, there are plenty of jeans stores in the sea. That’s word.
Now…
What if you only bought jeans from door-to-door salesmen? Why risk going to the store, you might get hurt again . You decide to wait until the salesmen come to you. You choose from whatever selection they offer. Sure, it’s simple, effortless, convenient… and you might even find a decent fit, and be content with what you get. But there’s a whole world of denim out there you’re not even giving yourself a chance to try on.
So where in the context of this analogy does each of us fit in?
Brendan - doesn’t want to spend his money at a store, or even on gas to get there. Fuck jeans.
Brian - tried a few white jeans in the past. The last comfortable pair was from a store that closed, but recently reopened. He’s considering going back to see what’s in stock now.
Bryant - the door-to-door salesmen know his house well. The jeans look pretty good in catalogs, so he’s ordered a few. After a while they get worn out, but salesmen keep coming around. Right now he’s got a fitting pair, but he’s moving soon and might not have room in his suitcase.
Derek - I don’t know all the stories, but I’ve heard he’s been to a lot of stores and ended up not liking them very much. He no longer makes any special effort to shop. Brendan maintains that he actually likes tights.
Jonathan - this frugal picky bastard never buys new clothes. A few times he tried some on but they never seemed to fit quite right. Once he went to a store at 99 Ranch and brought home a good pair of jeans and kept them for a while. But one day he rode a horse, they broke, and now they’re gone. He tried a French store but someone else took the last of his size… he hasn’t shopped since.
Steve - one time he found some jeans he really, really liked. He paid a lot for them, but the dumb bitch cashier left the security tag on. He returned them but lost the receipt so he didn’t get his money back. He ran over a cat on the way home. After a couple repeats or similar disasters, he finally found some jeans that worked out for him, and is probably wearing them right now.
“If it’s meant to be, eventually it’ll happen.”
“It didn’t work out. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be.”
My current belief is that such “meant to be” clichés are bullshit. People fall back on them when they are too lazy, afraid, or indecisive to take control of their own lives. Sure, sometimes it is best to wait and see. But don’t make up excuses or mystical destiny-driven reasons (well... if you happen to believe in destiny, that's just a whole other debate). I’d just like to think that over time we all have and will become more confident and proactive in pursuing our own goals and happiness. Here’s hoping…
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BRING UP THE CAT?????? =*(
Sorry for quoting Jon so much, but maybe if you fuckers wrote something more interesting I'd quote you too! JK. stop crying.
As i was reading through the old posts, it would seem that i was a lot better at writing (and more witty) when i was pissed off. Damn. Guess i should piss myself off more often. Fuck this happy shit!
holy shit the sun is coming up. time for bed!
real quick because i dont blog on here anymore.
In response to...
the fate thing. Yes, there is some uncertainty, but usually when you do something, you dont hope for the best, but rather you shoot for a goal. If your actions dont reach that goal, you try again, you stop trying, or you alter the goal so you can achieve it. Fate is just an excuse in my opinion. Yes, there are things you can't control, but it's best to concentrate on the stuff you can. If a bird shits on your car, maybe you shouldn't have parked it under the tree, or in an open space. Maybe you should have parked it in the garage.
I think you always have an element of control, but the more important matter is, why even worry about that?
Yeah i'm probably wrong. Feel free to line up your counter-arguments and i'll ignore them one by one. werd.
In response to...
The lack of motivation thing.
I think you have motivation. Dont tell me you don't. You had motivation the second you started to draw, or the moment you started thinking about what camera angle would look good for this shot or that shot. It takes motivation and dedication to learn the art, and that motivation never dies.
Lets face the facts, you're a very talented individual. You have more skills that you were born with than most people learn in their lifetime. The motivation is there, you just gotta stop making reasons why you can't jump in, and just do it.
Simply put, interest should always feed your motivation. Or rather, interest always DOES feed your motivation.
*i edited this second part to sound less forward. If you would like to hear the unedited version Brendan just let me know next time we chill. LOL.
In response to...
the fate thing. Yes, there is some uncertainty, but usually when you do something, you dont hope for the best, but rather you shoot for a goal. If your actions dont reach that goal, you try again, you stop trying, or you alter the goal so you can achieve it. Fate is just an excuse in my opinion. Yes, there are things you can't control, but it's best to concentrate on the stuff you can. If a bird shits on your car, maybe you shouldn't have parked it under the tree, or in an open space. Maybe you should have parked it in the garage.
I think you always have an element of control, but the more important matter is, why even worry about that?
Yeah i'm probably wrong. Feel free to line up your counter-arguments and i'll ignore them one by one. werd.
In response to...
The lack of motivation thing.
I think you have motivation. Dont tell me you don't. You had motivation the second you started to draw, or the moment you started thinking about what camera angle would look good for this shot or that shot. It takes motivation and dedication to learn the art, and that motivation never dies.
Lets face the facts, you're a very talented individual. You have more skills that you were born with than most people learn in their lifetime. The motivation is there, you just gotta stop making reasons why you can't jump in, and just do it.
Simply put, interest should always feed your motivation. Or rather, interest always DOES feed your motivation.
*i edited this second part to sound less forward. If you would like to hear the unedited version Brendan just let me know next time we chill. LOL.
WARNING: LONG POST. I'M SICK. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO, BUT DEAL WITH THESE THOUGHTS BY WRITING THEM DOWN ON PAPER...EH...TYPE THEM OUT. FEEL FREE TO SKIP OVER THIS CUZ NO ONE READS MY SHIT ANYWAY. HAHA. =)
I find it funny how when I feel like I'm going to blog since Pooky has been neglected for a week, someone else always blogs. I guess we are all on the same creative clock. So now it is time to push Tony's thoughts down the page! =P Again nothing important really here, just some random thoughts...
Musical Notes
I love the Postal Service. Therefore it is mandatory that I like Death Cab for Cutie. I know I'm probably late in liking these guys, but for those who don't know them I think it is worth a download to check them out. Soul Meets Body is their latest hit. They have a unique sound and is a nice break from all that booty shaking shit on the radio and television. Also Kanye is overrated. Thought I'd throw that in there.
Hope and The Aquarium
After working with Steve on his project for school, we got to take a couple of much needed breaks from Maya and creative thinking to sit down and talk. After those couple of nights I realized that it was the first time that Steve and I talked in a while. I told him about how Ricki met up with this guy named Jeff Lufkin and how it is a very small world indeed. I reminded him of the dream I had years ago which I just shared with Tony. I'm not saying it is anything like fate because that would be PSYCHO. But anyway this little story sets up for my next sentence. I told him that I'm not the type of person that believes in fate and he said the same. His reasoning is that he wants to feel in control of his life and that night I thought the same. We then went into a little bit about how hope sets you up for expectations and if these expectations are not met then we are slammed to the ground without our self esteem intact.
After thinking it over I thought I agreed with Steve. However, after thinking things over I think I changed my position on some certain things...
Things good and bad will happen in our lives. Whether it is something as small as a bird shitting on your freshly washed car or as big as someone passing away that was close to you, we will always be faced with decisions that will either affect our lives in the most tiny way or change us for the rest of our lives...or change the life of some stranger we don't even know. I like to think that I am in control of my fate and it is also comforting to me to think that we are all in sole control of our lives...but that isn't life.
Shit will hit the fan. This we are not in control of. What we are in control of is whether we want to wade in our shittles or clean it up and continue to have fun blowing air into the fan so it makes that funny sound.
What the fuck does an aquarium have to do with anything? Well an aquarium reminds me of what exactly I am trying to say. These fish can live their lives however they want in the universe given to them. They can hide under a rock or swim within the plants...but the big picture is that I am the god to their universe. They can't change the conditions they live in unless I do something about it. It is kind of depressing in a way that my fish depend so much on me...and it is also shitty when I let a fish die.
We are all in a fucking huge aquarium. We have control of what we want our lives to reflect, but we do not have TOTAL control ever. We rely on other people sometimes to make decisions for us...whether it be hiring me so I can get a better job and live a more comfortable life, or relying to much on my parents...all nuances of not having total control ever.
So none of this is new to you. You knew this already. I just wanted to say to all of you who are in the middle of decisions right now is that you are never in total control of what will happen. Sometimes all you can do is make a decision and hope it all turns out for the best...and that unknown is what makes life worth living don't you think? I think it is about time that all of us embrace that unknown rather than fear it...and I have hope that all of us will turn out fine.
Except for me. I have absolutely no hope for me.
Dual Widescreen Monitors
Thank you Bryant and Jonathan for showing me how awesome dual displays are. Of course you both knew that I always wanted dual displays, but was never in the position of affording them. For those who don't know, I got two dual widescreen 20inch monitors and they are fucking awesome. I was worried about dead pixels and backlighting issues, but so far both of them don't have one dead pixel or any backlighting issues...
Paired with a new graphics card that is way over my budget, but I don't care cuz I deserve one...these monitors rock. Which leads me to my next point...
Creativity Sucks
I probalby posted about this before, but I'm giving you an update...
Throughout my life and also recently I have heard some statements like...
"Man I wish I can draw."
"Dude I wish I could direct movies." (For the record so do I.)
"It must be so cool to _____*."
*Insert make webpages, paint, direct, edit...
Sure this is all cool. I don't think otherwise and am very happy that I can somewhat do all these things...the problem of course is this and those who aren't creative in the traditional sense (I say traditional because EVERYONE is creative whether it is how you handle people or how you deal with certain situations), but I am talking about creativity that manifests itself onto a blank canvas and is considered "art" in the most traditional sense, don't realize the toll that creativity might take on an artist.
I recently told Jonathan how I have been feeling lately because Jonathan who we all know is an awesome artist sometimes wrestles with the fact that he is doing a job that he kind of likes, but on the other hand loves to draw. I am in a deep creative slump right now. And when someone who is relying on his creativity to get him through life has no inspritation or motivation, it makes that person a.k.a. me feel like cutting my wrist with a dull plastic knife...and the only reason why I succeed in killing myself is because all these plastic knives keep breaking and my anger turns into straight determination.
Well we all know that it's not that bad, but it is in fact close to how I feel, except for the actual thinking of killing myself. When you cannot be creative, you tend to group it with self worth. You then start to think of creativity as an almost anti-hero who screws you when you need it most. I cannot force creativity...I'm not an artist that can do that...which brings me to another tangent...
When I went clubbing...YES I went clubbing...there are some photographic evidence of such a momentous occasion...I met...well nevermind. I had to introduce myself to Steve's friends because Steve knows that I will eat new people up if they piss me off...but we got into a conversation and I'm starting to take on Jonathan's sense of conversation. Sometimes he likes to say things that amuse him as almost an inside joke, because as long as he laughs at it, it is good enough for him.
So when I introduced myself to Steve's friends that night, I went into a little rant about how I'm a worthless man who has no talent and is a waste of natural rescources on this planet. Of course I wasn't trying to impress them, but rather see what their reaction would be...(sorry Steve, didn't mean to experiment on your friends) but besides that ass move...Steve said something to the two girls along the lines of this...and I just wanted to let Steve know that I appreciate this comment, because he seemed genuine about it, but he could have just been pulling one of those inside jokes for yourself bits...
"Nah. You know what the problem with this guy is [me] that he has all these talents, but can't concentrate on one...most people in this world have one huge talent and they run with it because that is all they do, but this guy can't make a decision."
That isn't word for word, but it is what I remember hearing...and quite frankly, Steve is dead on the fucking money. I can't make a decision if my life depended on it. So until then I will sit around and hope that some of these projects that Mike and Ari have lined up for Jonathan and I will give me some of that much needed motivation.
It's funny. I hated school because I was around idiots. But the motivation was getting nods from professors about my work. Now I have only me to answer to...and let me tell you...there is nothing worse than working for a boss that has no direction or confidence in his abilities.
In fact I'm going to quit.
Laguna Beach
Oh yeah and real quick...for all you Lauren Conrad lovers out there...I really don't think she can compete with this! Now if Jessica will only do a photoshoot like this...then I will have no reason to watch Laguna Beach anymore!
I find it funny how when I feel like I'm going to blog since Pooky has been neglected for a week, someone else always blogs. I guess we are all on the same creative clock. So now it is time to push Tony's thoughts down the page! =P Again nothing important really here, just some random thoughts...
Musical Notes
I love the Postal Service. Therefore it is mandatory that I like Death Cab for Cutie. I know I'm probably late in liking these guys, but for those who don't know them I think it is worth a download to check them out. Soul Meets Body is their latest hit. They have a unique sound and is a nice break from all that booty shaking shit on the radio and television. Also Kanye is overrated. Thought I'd throw that in there.
Hope and The Aquarium
After working with Steve on his project for school, we got to take a couple of much needed breaks from Maya and creative thinking to sit down and talk. After those couple of nights I realized that it was the first time that Steve and I talked in a while. I told him about how Ricki met up with this guy named Jeff Lufkin and how it is a very small world indeed. I reminded him of the dream I had years ago which I just shared with Tony. I'm not saying it is anything like fate because that would be PSYCHO. But anyway this little story sets up for my next sentence. I told him that I'm not the type of person that believes in fate and he said the same. His reasoning is that he wants to feel in control of his life and that night I thought the same. We then went into a little bit about how hope sets you up for expectations and if these expectations are not met then we are slammed to the ground without our self esteem intact.
After thinking it over I thought I agreed with Steve. However, after thinking things over I think I changed my position on some certain things...
Things good and bad will happen in our lives. Whether it is something as small as a bird shitting on your freshly washed car or as big as someone passing away that was close to you, we will always be faced with decisions that will either affect our lives in the most tiny way or change us for the rest of our lives...or change the life of some stranger we don't even know. I like to think that I am in control of my fate and it is also comforting to me to think that we are all in sole control of our lives...but that isn't life.
Shit will hit the fan. This we are not in control of. What we are in control of is whether we want to wade in our shittles or clean it up and continue to have fun blowing air into the fan so it makes that funny sound.
What the fuck does an aquarium have to do with anything? Well an aquarium reminds me of what exactly I am trying to say. These fish can live their lives however they want in the universe given to them. They can hide under a rock or swim within the plants...but the big picture is that I am the god to their universe. They can't change the conditions they live in unless I do something about it. It is kind of depressing in a way that my fish depend so much on me...and it is also shitty when I let a fish die.
We are all in a fucking huge aquarium. We have control of what we want our lives to reflect, but we do not have TOTAL control ever. We rely on other people sometimes to make decisions for us...whether it be hiring me so I can get a better job and live a more comfortable life, or relying to much on my parents...all nuances of not having total control ever.
So none of this is new to you. You knew this already. I just wanted to say to all of you who are in the middle of decisions right now is that you are never in total control of what will happen. Sometimes all you can do is make a decision and hope it all turns out for the best...and that unknown is what makes life worth living don't you think? I think it is about time that all of us embrace that unknown rather than fear it...and I have hope that all of us will turn out fine.
Except for me. I have absolutely no hope for me.
Dual Widescreen Monitors
Thank you Bryant and Jonathan for showing me how awesome dual displays are. Of course you both knew that I always wanted dual displays, but was never in the position of affording them. For those who don't know, I got two dual widescreen 20inch monitors and they are fucking awesome. I was worried about dead pixels and backlighting issues, but so far both of them don't have one dead pixel or any backlighting issues...
Paired with a new graphics card that is way over my budget, but I don't care cuz I deserve one...these monitors rock. Which leads me to my next point...
Creativity Sucks
I probalby posted about this before, but I'm giving you an update...
Throughout my life and also recently I have heard some statements like...
"Man I wish I can draw."
"Dude I wish I could direct movies." (For the record so do I.)
"It must be so cool to _____*."
*Insert make webpages, paint, direct, edit...
Sure this is all cool. I don't think otherwise and am very happy that I can somewhat do all these things...the problem of course is this and those who aren't creative in the traditional sense (I say traditional because EVERYONE is creative whether it is how you handle people or how you deal with certain situations), but I am talking about creativity that manifests itself onto a blank canvas and is considered "art" in the most traditional sense, don't realize the toll that creativity might take on an artist.
I recently told Jonathan how I have been feeling lately because Jonathan who we all know is an awesome artist sometimes wrestles with the fact that he is doing a job that he kind of likes, but on the other hand loves to draw. I am in a deep creative slump right now. And when someone who is relying on his creativity to get him through life has no inspritation or motivation, it makes that person a.k.a. me feel like cutting my wrist with a dull plastic knife...and the only reason why I succeed in killing myself is because all these plastic knives keep breaking and my anger turns into straight determination.
Well we all know that it's not that bad, but it is in fact close to how I feel, except for the actual thinking of killing myself. When you cannot be creative, you tend to group it with self worth. You then start to think of creativity as an almost anti-hero who screws you when you need it most. I cannot force creativity...I'm not an artist that can do that...which brings me to another tangent...
When I went clubbing...YES I went clubbing...there are some photographic evidence of such a momentous occasion...I met...well nevermind. I had to introduce myself to Steve's friends because Steve knows that I will eat new people up if they piss me off...but we got into a conversation and I'm starting to take on Jonathan's sense of conversation. Sometimes he likes to say things that amuse him as almost an inside joke, because as long as he laughs at it, it is good enough for him.
So when I introduced myself to Steve's friends that night, I went into a little rant about how I'm a worthless man who has no talent and is a waste of natural rescources on this planet. Of course I wasn't trying to impress them, but rather see what their reaction would be...(sorry Steve, didn't mean to experiment on your friends) but besides that ass move...Steve said something to the two girls along the lines of this...and I just wanted to let Steve know that I appreciate this comment, because he seemed genuine about it, but he could have just been pulling one of those inside jokes for yourself bits...
"Nah. You know what the problem with this guy is [me] that he has all these talents, but can't concentrate on one...most people in this world have one huge talent and they run with it because that is all they do, but this guy can't make a decision."
That isn't word for word, but it is what I remember hearing...and quite frankly, Steve is dead on the fucking money. I can't make a decision if my life depended on it. So until then I will sit around and hope that some of these projects that Mike and Ari have lined up for Jonathan and I will give me some of that much needed motivation.
It's funny. I hated school because I was around idiots. But the motivation was getting nods from professors about my work. Now I have only me to answer to...and let me tell you...there is nothing worse than working for a boss that has no direction or confidence in his abilities.
In fact I'm going to quit.
Laguna Beach
Oh yeah and real quick...for all you Lauren Conrad lovers out there...I really don't think she can compete with this! Now if Jessica will only do a photoshoot like this...then I will have no reason to watch Laguna Beach anymore!
Sep 22, 2005
Sep 16, 2005
Baseball rosters (14):
Me
Andy
Brendan H
Brian H
Tony
Jonathan
Shannon
Caitlin
Jim
Kirk
Rob
Nevin
Anthony
Derek
Maybes:
John Ho
Ryan
Steve
So this is how bored I am at work:
What do you guys think?
Me
Andy
Brendan H
Brian H
Tony
Jonathan
Shannon
Caitlin
Jim
Kirk
Rob
Nevin
Anthony
Derek
Maybes:
John Ho
Ryan
Steve
So this is how bored I am at work:
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What do you guys think?
Sep 7, 2005
Softball was fun. I hate the sport, but playing it with friends and a little wood bat is hella fun, i must admit. The food was damn good too.
Laguna Beach is the worst show ever. Worst than real world. However, one has to expect that for three reasons: one, it's on MTV..when was the last time MTV had a quality show? two, it's a reality show...a genre that is well known for having shitty shows. three, it's a show about stuck up rich white girls...so basically it's about a well off minority in america...a show that showcases the rich and fortunate when the majority of americans are barely making enough, and over 40 percent are living in poverty and barely have the necessities to survive. That means no one will give a shit. It's like complaining about the quality of your drinking water while a small child who hasn't had anything to drink in 5 days is staring at you.
I'm downloading the Katamari soundtrack. Why is that music so damn crack-like addicting???
This weekend will be fun. Party and clubbing. Sweet. And Brendan is coming out...crazy!
Life is good. Especially with a beer in your hand.
Laguna Beach is the worst show ever. Worst than real world. However, one has to expect that for three reasons: one, it's on MTV..when was the last time MTV had a quality show? two, it's a reality show...a genre that is well known for having shitty shows. three, it's a show about stuck up rich white girls...so basically it's about a well off minority in america...a show that showcases the rich and fortunate when the majority of americans are barely making enough, and over 40 percent are living in poverty and barely have the necessities to survive. That means no one will give a shit. It's like complaining about the quality of your drinking water while a small child who hasn't had anything to drink in 5 days is staring at you.
I'm downloading the Katamari soundtrack. Why is that music so damn crack-like addicting???
This weekend will be fun. Party and clubbing. Sweet. And Brendan is coming out...crazy!
Life is good. Especially with a beer in your hand.
Sep 3, 2005
Bonus Post
Well, I'll bite my toungue for jumping on the racism thing. Apparently, journalism has rules it must follow. The photographer saw the black man loot a store, but they did not see the two caucasian people loot, so they must put down "found." Rules are rules, I guess.
Well, I'll bite my toungue for jumping on the racism thing. Apparently, journalism has rules it must follow. The photographer saw the black man loot a store, but they did not see the two caucasian people loot, so they must put down "found." Rules are rules, I guess.
Sep 2, 2005
Everyone's entitled to their opinions. Laguna Beach does in fact SUCK SHIT. I actually find it crazy how I hate all other reality game shows, but when it comes to the Real World and pretty much anything on MTV (except Sweet 16...I hate all those bitches.) I can't help but not stop and watch it. So to my defense...
Andy suggested everyone go see Spice World. And they did.
Jonathan likes funk. Who likes that shit?
Reviews so far for EWF/Chicago...people are saying it is one of the best concerts they have ever seen. Apparently they play together at the beginning and the end and then in the middle do their own sets. That is fucking awesome. The mere fact that I'm going to this concert should erase any judgements on my leisurely preferences. Hehe.
Werd.
Andy suggested everyone go see Spice World. And they did.
Jonathan likes funk. Who likes that shit?
Reviews so far for EWF/Chicago...people are saying it is one of the best concerts they have ever seen. Apparently they play together at the beginning and the end and then in the middle do their own sets. That is fucking awesome. The mere fact that I'm going to this concert should erase any judgements on my leisurely preferences. Hehe.
Werd.
Sep 1, 2005
Katrina: Donations
Just to offer a counter point to what Jon's saying about company's only helping themselves out... I just got an e-mail from CEC saying that they'll do a dollar for dollar match for up to twenty dollars out of your paycheck. I figure what the hell. If my twenty dollars can turn into forty, why not... Even though CEC workers are indeed the lowest of them all :)
That's not to say I wouldn't donate to those other people who are out there, but I'm still at the lower end of the pay spectrum. When I become CEO of Golfland or something, I'll donate another 20 bucks to the red cross or the like.
And in closing, I'd like to give you all a web site that proves racism is still in effect.
Just to offer a counter point to what Jon's saying about company's only helping themselves out... I just got an e-mail from CEC saying that they'll do a dollar for dollar match for up to twenty dollars out of your paycheck. I figure what the hell. If my twenty dollars can turn into forty, why not... Even though CEC workers are indeed the lowest of them all :)
That's not to say I wouldn't donate to those other people who are out there, but I'm still at the lower end of the pay spectrum. When I become CEO of Golfland or something, I'll donate another 20 bucks to the red cross or the like.
And in closing, I'd like to give you all a web site that proves racism is still in effect.
It should be noted that The Onion's articles are intended to be humorous, not true. Dave doesn't think we're lame for the reasons stated in the article. Other reasons.
Katrina
Nature can be one mean mother. At times like this when the media decides to really show how bad things are for certain people, my pity and sympathy show up out of nowhere. I think I'll donate to Red Cross.
I often say rich people who live extravagant lives in unnecessary palaces and buy their kids BMWs for their supersweet 16s are selfish. Their money could help less fortunate people who really need help, but instead it's going to decadent excess. And every time I say this I consider how I fit into that picture. My job affords me a few nice things, but generally my purchases have some practical purpose. Anyway, this is one of those chances for me to put my money where my mouth is and those selfish bastards' money isn't.
LM has a help-our-employees fund, but that seems somewhat unfair. Everyone help your own company? "Oh you work at McDonald's? I have great news: donations are pouring in from across the country to help you out. Here's your Kanye West CD and a $5 giftcard to Jamba Juice. Feel better."
Laguna Beach
So TV is so powerful now that you don't even need to offer humor, talent, or knowledge to amass an audience. People will WATCH SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE instead of living their own, just because it's being broadcast, albeit with prettier faces.
What can I say… to each her own.
On the other hand, maybe it's a subtly deep commentary, reminding us that REAL LIFE, UNSCRIPTED, is full of the humor and drama that we seek through artificial means, and that we need simply to get up out of our loungers, step outside and live. Maybe that's the point; it's just that nobody's getting it.
the home
Growing old… sad, perhaps, but better than the alternative. And by alternative I mean creeping everyone out like Cher.
I'm not familiar with retirement homes, other than what I've seen in TV and movies. Are they really that bad? What's the better way to grow old, to be in your own house with your spouse? Or by yourself--I'm not sure which is worse at that point.
Maybe the old people care home is less like being sentenced to prison and more like a glorious return to the dorm life. You meet a lot of people your age, stay up late drinking and ordering pizza and cheesesticks, wrestle in the hallways, drop fruit from the top floor, experiment sexually, all that goodness. Then again, maybe not.
I expect when I get old something like Batteries Not Included will keep me entertained. So the best is yet to come...
Katrina
Nature can be one mean mother. At times like this when the media decides to really show how bad things are for certain people, my pity and sympathy show up out of nowhere. I think I'll donate to Red Cross.
I often say rich people who live extravagant lives in unnecessary palaces and buy their kids BMWs for their supersweet 16s are selfish. Their money could help less fortunate people who really need help, but instead it's going to decadent excess. And every time I say this I consider how I fit into that picture. My job affords me a few nice things, but generally my purchases have some practical purpose. Anyway, this is one of those chances for me to put my money where my mouth is and those selfish bastards' money isn't.
LM has a help-our-employees fund, but that seems somewhat unfair. Everyone help your own company? "Oh you work at McDonald's? I have great news: donations are pouring in from across the country to help you out. Here's your Kanye West CD and a $5 giftcard to Jamba Juice. Feel better."
Laguna Beach
So TV is so powerful now that you don't even need to offer humor, talent, or knowledge to amass an audience. People will WATCH SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE instead of living their own, just because it's being broadcast, albeit with prettier faces.
What can I say… to each her own.
On the other hand, maybe it's a subtly deep commentary, reminding us that REAL LIFE, UNSCRIPTED, is full of the humor and drama that we seek through artificial means, and that we need simply to get up out of our loungers, step outside and live. Maybe that's the point; it's just that nobody's getting it.
the home
Growing old… sad, perhaps, but better than the alternative. And by alternative I mean creeping everyone out like Cher.
I'm not familiar with retirement homes, other than what I've seen in TV and movies. Are they really that bad? What's the better way to grow old, to be in your own house with your spouse? Or by yourself--I'm not sure which is worse at that point.
Maybe the old people care home is less like being sentenced to prison and more like a glorious return to the dorm life. You meet a lot of people your age, stay up late drinking and ordering pizza and cheesesticks, wrestle in the hallways, drop fruit from the top floor, experiment sexually, all that goodness. Then again, maybe not.
I expect when I get old something like Batteries Not Included will keep me entertained. So the best is yet to come...
Aug 31, 2005
Pardon this random post. Thoughts just shooting off.
Fuck Kanye. It's all about this new DJ krush and toshinori kondo. Sick ass beats mixed with some chill melodies brought to you by kondo's chill trumpet. You'd have to hear it to see what I mean.
I'm tired so I'm going to make some quick points then go to bed. I would elaborate on most of these seeing how I love to talk about myself, but I thought I would be wasting your time in doing so. It's been a long time since I've blogged so here goes nothing...
After some crazy beats at 3-6 at Garden, I think I've realized that 3-6 or even 4-8 is now considered pleasure poker. I always wanted callers against me, but now with so much raising and so much chasing, it is hard for me to think that I can turn a decent profit at these games. Of course that means my game is lacking. Nonetheless I have sat down at 5-10 online. The very thought that I can lose 120.00 in one hand actually makes me a little happy. It's been a while since I've felt a little hurt losing money. I think this gives me more motivation to never feel this way again. The first session I lost 130.00 in half an hour. Today I won 82.00 in 20 minutes. Fuck the money. After today I feel more confident. Of course confidence doesn't lead to wins...but it sure doesn't hurt.
Went into a home for old people when I went to go see my mom's uncle and aunt. I hate that place. My cousin Cris turned to me and said, "I hope I don't ever grow old like this..." When Stitch is 25 and in the prime of his life I'll be 50. Granted I make it that long.
My sister got into an accident on the way home from Fresno. Now sure I'm mean to her and sure she hates my guts, but hopefully she knows that I show my feelings in fucked up ways sometimes...this time I told her again that if she needs some help financially she can always feel free to come to me. I hope she takes that as she can come to me for anything...even though I'm an ass.
Disneyland sounds fucking awesome. EWF and Chicago sounds fucking awesome. Baseball on Labor day sounds fucking awesome. Weezer and Foo Fighters sounds fucking awesome. Kanye sounds like a bitch.
I bought Vol. 1 and 2 of Harrington's book. He brings up some very cool points...Jonathan just beat Tony at our most recent tournament. I have the most wins, but Jonathan is one behind. Soon he'll take his rightful place at the top even though he doesn't care about his standings. Hopefully Harrington's book will give me an added edge.
Steve's friend's brother passed away. It made me think what I would do if I found out I only have weeks to live. I honestly think I would use all my psychological calmness I use at cards and accept my fate. I would spend the rest of my days making sure that those around me understand that I am okay with what is going on...I would thank them for everything they have done for me and I would let them know that I was proud to be their family/friend. Werd.
So far three of my fish died. No big deal to some of you but nonetheless they are pets and I did get used to seeing them. Namu Amida Butsu in the hizouse.
I've been fishing three times now. So far I have slid down 3 hills and brushed up against poison oak. I haven't caught shit. I've had one bite and somehow hooked a fucking minnow...and that shit got away. It's very depressing really, but I'm really drawn to it.
Tony has to watch classic films for his class. Now perhaps he'll join me and Derek in the pleasure of watching shit that is outdated...when the times were more innocent and where all the cliches of film began.
I started writing my Samurai treatment. It really focuses on a brother/sister relationship. Ricki will be proud to hear that I'm sure. I wish I could tell you more, but I'm a shitty writer and no one will ever see it. Except for Jonathan because out of boredom I told him about it already. Hah.
Laguna Beach. Sure you can say that I've jumped on the bandwagon, but I can assure you this isn't true. I can tell you everything that happened last season. I'll just never admit it and even laughed at Kevin for watching it. Quick rundown of what I think of the cast...
Kristin Cavalleri- Okay so she talks funny. Like Ricki says..."Steeeeee-phan" Would I pick her over LC? I doubt it, but in the last episode I did like how she seemed to be there for Jessica. It showed her in a different light. That and her..."Come here Talan! Goochie coochie gooo goo". You'd have to see the episode to know what I'm spitt'n about.
Lauren Conrad - This one is too cute for her own good. She can't get past Stephen and I like the fact that she can't get passed him. Makes the show good.
Jessica Smith - I like her. Something about her (besides being jailbait) makes me tingly inside. Haha! She's an idiot and I like that. I guess she is cute because she is ignorant actually.
Jason - Anyone that can say, "because you're fucking annoying", "I'm tired of your shit" "You're fucking annoying" over and over again and still be in the relationship has something going for him. I'm gonna grow out my beard to see if that's what it is. Haha!
The rest of the bitches can be killed off for all I care. But it makes more some good television...well...at least entertaining for my simple mind.
Steve introduced all of us to Mel. After she left I realize I don't even fucking try anymore to make a good first impression. I was racist and said some insensitive things. So that means she either respects the fact that I'm being myself or she thinks I'm an asshole and all the company Steve keeps up here are assholes. Either way she was cool and her taking Tony's money made my night. (Yeah I know you caught your 7 outer you fag...you still have to get lucky to beat me...heh)
Saw a Giants game and got to hang out with Bryant, Shan and Julie. So far the Giants are 1.000 win percentage when I am in the stands. They should pay me to be at all the games so they can have the perfect season (at home anyway). Awesome time.
Ate at Dicicco's with Jonathan. We are so fucking bland that when we got up to go to the salad bar, they fucking cleared our table of our bread, dipping sauce and all our plates and utensils. Are we so fucking boring that we don't even stand out in civilization anymore? Had a very cool conversation with Jonathan. Its nice to know that even though he is in a stable job he is always looking to better his life. Not necessarily financially, but creatively. That's admirable and I wish I had that drive. Shall we go to Nihon? Fuck it. I'd just cramp your style.
I'm going on one hour of sleep. Time to go to work at the Jew shop then come home and try my hand at 5-10 again. I need to pay my parents back some money and I owe Jonathan about 400.00 for the EWF tickets.
Fuck Kanye. It's all about this new DJ krush and toshinori kondo. Sick ass beats mixed with some chill melodies brought to you by kondo's chill trumpet. You'd have to hear it to see what I mean.
I'm tired so I'm going to make some quick points then go to bed. I would elaborate on most of these seeing how I love to talk about myself, but I thought I would be wasting your time in doing so. It's been a long time since I've blogged so here goes nothing...
After some crazy beats at 3-6 at Garden, I think I've realized that 3-6 or even 4-8 is now considered pleasure poker. I always wanted callers against me, but now with so much raising and so much chasing, it is hard for me to think that I can turn a decent profit at these games. Of course that means my game is lacking. Nonetheless I have sat down at 5-10 online. The very thought that I can lose 120.00 in one hand actually makes me a little happy. It's been a while since I've felt a little hurt losing money. I think this gives me more motivation to never feel this way again. The first session I lost 130.00 in half an hour. Today I won 82.00 in 20 minutes. Fuck the money. After today I feel more confident. Of course confidence doesn't lead to wins...but it sure doesn't hurt.
Went into a home for old people when I went to go see my mom's uncle and aunt. I hate that place. My cousin Cris turned to me and said, "I hope I don't ever grow old like this..." When Stitch is 25 and in the prime of his life I'll be 50. Granted I make it that long.
My sister got into an accident on the way home from Fresno. Now sure I'm mean to her and sure she hates my guts, but hopefully she knows that I show my feelings in fucked up ways sometimes...this time I told her again that if she needs some help financially she can always feel free to come to me. I hope she takes that as she can come to me for anything...even though I'm an ass.
Disneyland sounds fucking awesome. EWF and Chicago sounds fucking awesome. Baseball on Labor day sounds fucking awesome. Weezer and Foo Fighters sounds fucking awesome. Kanye sounds like a bitch.
I bought Vol. 1 and 2 of Harrington's book. He brings up some very cool points...Jonathan just beat Tony at our most recent tournament. I have the most wins, but Jonathan is one behind. Soon he'll take his rightful place at the top even though he doesn't care about his standings. Hopefully Harrington's book will give me an added edge.
Steve's friend's brother passed away. It made me think what I would do if I found out I only have weeks to live. I honestly think I would use all my psychological calmness I use at cards and accept my fate. I would spend the rest of my days making sure that those around me understand that I am okay with what is going on...I would thank them for everything they have done for me and I would let them know that I was proud to be their family/friend. Werd.
So far three of my fish died. No big deal to some of you but nonetheless they are pets and I did get used to seeing them. Namu Amida Butsu in the hizouse.
I've been fishing three times now. So far I have slid down 3 hills and brushed up against poison oak. I haven't caught shit. I've had one bite and somehow hooked a fucking minnow...and that shit got away. It's very depressing really, but I'm really drawn to it.
Tony has to watch classic films for his class. Now perhaps he'll join me and Derek in the pleasure of watching shit that is outdated...when the times were more innocent and where all the cliches of film began.
I started writing my Samurai treatment. It really focuses on a brother/sister relationship. Ricki will be proud to hear that I'm sure. I wish I could tell you more, but I'm a shitty writer and no one will ever see it. Except for Jonathan because out of boredom I told him about it already. Hah.
Laguna Beach. Sure you can say that I've jumped on the bandwagon, but I can assure you this isn't true. I can tell you everything that happened last season. I'll just never admit it and even laughed at Kevin for watching it. Quick rundown of what I think of the cast...
Kristin Cavalleri- Okay so she talks funny. Like Ricki says..."Steeeeee-phan" Would I pick her over LC? I doubt it, but in the last episode I did like how she seemed to be there for Jessica. It showed her in a different light. That and her..."Come here Talan! Goochie coochie gooo goo". You'd have to see the episode to know what I'm spitt'n about.
Lauren Conrad - This one is too cute for her own good. She can't get past Stephen and I like the fact that she can't get passed him. Makes the show good.
Jessica Smith - I like her. Something about her (besides being jailbait) makes me tingly inside. Haha! She's an idiot and I like that. I guess she is cute because she is ignorant actually.
Jason - Anyone that can say, "because you're fucking annoying", "I'm tired of your shit" "You're fucking annoying" over and over again and still be in the relationship has something going for him. I'm gonna grow out my beard to see if that's what it is. Haha!
The rest of the bitches can be killed off for all I care. But it makes more some good television...well...at least entertaining for my simple mind.
Steve introduced all of us to Mel. After she left I realize I don't even fucking try anymore to make a good first impression. I was racist and said some insensitive things. So that means she either respects the fact that I'm being myself or she thinks I'm an asshole and all the company Steve keeps up here are assholes. Either way she was cool and her taking Tony's money made my night. (Yeah I know you caught your 7 outer you fag...you still have to get lucky to beat me...heh)
Saw a Giants game and got to hang out with Bryant, Shan and Julie. So far the Giants are 1.000 win percentage when I am in the stands. They should pay me to be at all the games so they can have the perfect season (at home anyway). Awesome time.
Ate at Dicicco's with Jonathan. We are so fucking bland that when we got up to go to the salad bar, they fucking cleared our table of our bread, dipping sauce and all our plates and utensils. Are we so fucking boring that we don't even stand out in civilization anymore? Had a very cool conversation with Jonathan. Its nice to know that even though he is in a stable job he is always looking to better his life. Not necessarily financially, but creatively. That's admirable and I wish I had that drive. Shall we go to Nihon? Fuck it. I'd just cramp your style.
I'm going on one hour of sleep. Time to go to work at the Jew shop then come home and try my hand at 5-10 again. I need to pay my parents back some money and I owe Jonathan about 400.00 for the EWF tickets.
Aug 24, 2005
I agree with Andy that it's probably the best idea. You gotta take some pressure off the kid. He's 20, 1st pick overall, plays a position with the most exposure, and is probably one of the highest paid players on the team. Also you have to follow in the foot steps of Montana, Young, and to some degree Garcia. That's tough for a Rookie to come in and do.
Alex Smith has looked pretty ugly so far, but you can tell the potential is there. It just takes some time for a person to adjust and you gotta be patient.
If say the 49ers got Culpepper and he looked that bad, I would say it's ok to complain and yell at the TV, but you can't hate on a guy for at least a couple seasons.
Go niners, I say they will go 6 - 10, 8 - 8 @ best.
Alex Smith has looked pretty ugly so far, but you can tell the potential is there. It just takes some time for a person to adjust and you gotta be patient.
If say the 49ers got Culpepper and he looked that bad, I would say it's ok to complain and yell at the TV, but you can't hate on a guy for at least a couple seasons.
Go niners, I say they will go 6 - 10, 8 - 8 @ best.
Aug 23, 2005
For all you Smith haters (though it's preseason and his first year)
http://sports.espn.go.com/nfl/news/story?id=2141244
This should make you happy. =)
http://sports.espn.go.com/nfl/news/story?id=2141244
This should make you happy. =)
Jul 28, 2005
Vegas from August 15 - Sept something is 160 bucks for two nights and air (excalibur). You have to leave on a Monday or Tuesday, but i figure some vacation is worth it.
Again, the average price to Vegas is over 200 dollars for FLIGHT ALONE.
So even if i can't go, please go. That is an INSANE deal. INSANE, I say.
Again, the average price to Vegas is over 200 dollars for FLIGHT ALONE.
So even if i can't go, please go. That is an INSANE deal. INSANE, I say.
Ok so two posts in a row...crazy...but I also remember last time we rode to the Giants game we asked about our top 10 songs. I went through my playlists, my CDs and came up with this....
10. New Edition - I'm Still in Love With You - This was one of my favorites from high school and it's been able to stay atop as one of my favorite R&B/Love songs.
9. Righteous Brothers - You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling - it was a tough choice between this song and Unchained Melody, but this song has a lot of nostalgic value to it.
8. Boyz II Men - In the Still of the Night - Old school song done better by a newer group. This song has a lot of nostalgic value to it as well. Simple yet powerful.
7. Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby - This is one of my favorite songs and it took me some time to figure out where this really should be. Anytime I'm feeling down, I listen to this song to cheer me up.
6. Jon B. - Someone to Love - Bad Boys soundtrack, slow dances in school, this reminds me of what I want to hear from R&B songs. Too many songs these days are going to hip-hop influences where beats and bitches are more important then vocals and lyrics.
5. Bush - Glycerine - A little alternative flavor, but this is a song I always love belting when driving in my car. It reminds me a lot of car rides taken and road trips made where this song came up.
4. Live - Lightning Crashes - A sad song, but somehow it has a calming sense to it. I like it towards the end when it has a very climatic feel to the song. Another song from back in the day that I used to sing along with all the time.
3. Boyz II Men - End of the Road - I didn't think that 2 of these songs would make my top 10, but this is another song that reminds me of the type of R&B I like. This is more special because it's a group that harmonizes so well together and each one knows their role. When Wanya is belting out tunes at the end, it's just makes you realize just how talented people are.
2. Ben E. King - Stand By Me - Old school song, great message, simple lyrics. I love it.
1. Jodeci - Lately - This was a tough one to choose, but I just remember the good times Derek and I use to have singing this around the place in high school. All is needed is a little piano in the background and Kci and Jojo just let their souls take control.
I know a lot of these songs are favorites because of nostalgic reasons, but those are the best types of songs to remember. Songs that spark memories will be the ones we remember for the rest of our lives.
Runner ups - Counting Crows - Mr. Jones, Kci-Jojo - All My Life, DMB - Crash, Bon Jovi - Livin' on a Prayer, Yaz - Only You, 112 - Nowhere, Michelle Branch - One of These Days, The Temptations - My Girl, Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody
This was a tough list, I'm sure if you asked me the same question in 2 weeks this list would change depending on my mood. =)
10. New Edition - I'm Still in Love With You - This was one of my favorites from high school and it's been able to stay atop as one of my favorite R&B/Love songs.
9. Righteous Brothers - You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling - it was a tough choice between this song and Unchained Melody, but this song has a lot of nostalgic value to it.
8. Boyz II Men - In the Still of the Night - Old school song done better by a newer group. This song has a lot of nostalgic value to it as well. Simple yet powerful.
7. Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby - This is one of my favorite songs and it took me some time to figure out where this really should be. Anytime I'm feeling down, I listen to this song to cheer me up.
6. Jon B. - Someone to Love - Bad Boys soundtrack, slow dances in school, this reminds me of what I want to hear from R&B songs. Too many songs these days are going to hip-hop influences where beats and bitches are more important then vocals and lyrics.
5. Bush - Glycerine - A little alternative flavor, but this is a song I always love belting when driving in my car. It reminds me a lot of car rides taken and road trips made where this song came up.
4. Live - Lightning Crashes - A sad song, but somehow it has a calming sense to it. I like it towards the end when it has a very climatic feel to the song. Another song from back in the day that I used to sing along with all the time.
3. Boyz II Men - End of the Road - I didn't think that 2 of these songs would make my top 10, but this is another song that reminds me of the type of R&B I like. This is more special because it's a group that harmonizes so well together and each one knows their role. When Wanya is belting out tunes at the end, it's just makes you realize just how talented people are.
2. Ben E. King - Stand By Me - Old school song, great message, simple lyrics. I love it.
1. Jodeci - Lately - This was a tough one to choose, but I just remember the good times Derek and I use to have singing this around the place in high school. All is needed is a little piano in the background and Kci and Jojo just let their souls take control.
I know a lot of these songs are favorites because of nostalgic reasons, but those are the best types of songs to remember. Songs that spark memories will be the ones we remember for the rest of our lives.
Runner ups - Counting Crows - Mr. Jones, Kci-Jojo - All My Life, DMB - Crash, Bon Jovi - Livin' on a Prayer, Yaz - Only You, 112 - Nowhere, Michelle Branch - One of These Days, The Temptations - My Girl, Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody
This was a tough list, I'm sure if you asked me the same question in 2 weeks this list would change depending on my mood. =)
Jul 27, 2005
Brendan, I've said it once and I'll say it again, you're one of the few friends I don't ever really worry about when it comes to you succeeding in life. You may not have the motivation now, but it will come. One day you will ask yourself that question of when you're going to be fed up and you'll take action. Keep sleeping on it. =)
As for me and I'm sure with others there is a huge amount of routine in my life. My typical weekday goes like this:
-Wake up @ 7am or 8am depending on when I have a meeting.
-Get to the office at 8 or 9 and call into a meeting and check email for about an hour.
-Web surf for another hour while I'm responding back to emails. Check ESPN, email, blogs, gamespot, foxsports, some web comics, and now myspace.
-Maybe do something productive for an hour. It's either a meeting or I'm talking online w/ a bunch o' work people to get their ish done.
-Lunch by myself because I don't know that many people and I am not comfortable enough to eat lunch with most. This means grabbing something and coming back to my office and surfing the web some more.
-Web surf while my food settles.
-Usually in another meeting @ 2.
- Chat online, write emails, and wrap my day up by about 5-6 ish.
-Go to the gym.
-Eat dinner and watch a Giants game until about 10pm.
-Come online - talk to nobody on AIM but sign on anyway, listen to music, read the same sites as above.
-Go to bed by midnight. Repeat Sunday night - Thursday.
So far this is two years and still running. Next thing I know this will be 40 years from now and I'll still be doing the same shit. Thank god for the weekends where I can break the monotony for at least a couple days. I hope we keep playing football, basketball, or whatever the next sport so that I have something ultimately to look forward to. I realized the weekends can be spent in any number of ways to BBQing, clubbing, going to Monterey, lounging, doing chores, poker, videogames, etc. It sucks that during the week I don't really have this luxury because I am too damn tired.
And the fun parts in between all the chaos I think about what I've lost and how I'm supposed to move on. My thoughts are a lot of "I really hate myself for feeling this way." I can't stand it and I don't think I've ever been more frustrated at myself. I hope everyone knows that I am trying to move on. I hope no one feels that I'm crying about my problems constantly and not wanting to better myself or improve my situation (this is coincidence to your blog Brendan haha). This has become a bigger challenge then I could ever imagine, but I know I will pull through. Bear with me and be patient. I just want everyone to know I am trying my best, but I may need a vent session just to get my frustrations out.
We all deal with problems/issues differently and I'm trying to be proactive in conquering mine. Parts of me think I'm forcing things and not letting things happen naturally, but I refuse to accept that I can't try and get out of my funk.
Sorry I didn't mean to post that last part, but just came out naturally. I think there are things that I want to put on my blog, but I know she reads it. Even though I shouldn't care, I don't want her to see me in a weak state.
No more weddings for me for a while, that shit made these things crawl back in mind. haha.
As for great memories that always seem to make me smile:
-College graduation - who could ask for any better day then being able to stand tall with my best friends at graduation.
-High school graduation - walking w/ Brendan, felt like we went full circle.
-Playing football at Payne School (elementary -> middle school -> some high school -> now)
-Playing Hockey at Payne everyday during the summers. I never felt so confident in my ability at a sport. The first time I ever felt like I could succeed.
-Playing Track n Field at my house and Eric crying because the other dudes were cheating.
-Playing Tecmo Bowl every chance I could against friends.
-Playing NHL against Brendan online and Andy calling Mr. H a bitch without knowing it.
-Pink Taco, Casper, Maniac Cop, Sushi Boy, Flaming Bovine playing Duke Nuke Em everyday.
-Singing in the car in high school.
-Proms, dances -> my form of sad, pathetic dating in high school haha.
-The "no pants" night, "kent's naked", gay movie title game, breakfast burritos, "Rob Lowe" night
-Obons - Fuji -> giving out rings -> andy's hamburger story -> andy hittin on old ladies -> "you got it" -> and now Bingo and Batman.
-Jonathan's 22nd -> Jillians -> cleaning shoes -> head hitting window -> video tape -> Pho -> fingers that don't move.
-Old Navy and getting that coupon from the old lady in front of me and brendan and I putting on a show for the cashier.
We have lots o' stories and memories, hopefully they don't stop......
As for me and I'm sure with others there is a huge amount of routine in my life. My typical weekday goes like this:
-Wake up @ 7am or 8am depending on when I have a meeting.
-Get to the office at 8 or 9 and call into a meeting and check email for about an hour.
-Web surf for another hour while I'm responding back to emails. Check ESPN, email, blogs, gamespot, foxsports, some web comics, and now myspace.
-Maybe do something productive for an hour. It's either a meeting or I'm talking online w/ a bunch o' work people to get their ish done.
-Lunch by myself because I don't know that many people and I am not comfortable enough to eat lunch with most. This means grabbing something and coming back to my office and surfing the web some more.
-Web surf while my food settles.
-Usually in another meeting @ 2.
- Chat online, write emails, and wrap my day up by about 5-6 ish.
-Go to the gym.
-Eat dinner and watch a Giants game until about 10pm.
-Come online - talk to nobody on AIM but sign on anyway, listen to music, read the same sites as above.
-Go to bed by midnight. Repeat Sunday night - Thursday.
So far this is two years and still running. Next thing I know this will be 40 years from now and I'll still be doing the same shit. Thank god for the weekends where I can break the monotony for at least a couple days. I hope we keep playing football, basketball, or whatever the next sport so that I have something ultimately to look forward to. I realized the weekends can be spent in any number of ways to BBQing, clubbing, going to Monterey, lounging, doing chores, poker, videogames, etc. It sucks that during the week I don't really have this luxury because I am too damn tired.
And the fun parts in between all the chaos I think about what I've lost and how I'm supposed to move on. My thoughts are a lot of "I really hate myself for feeling this way." I can't stand it and I don't think I've ever been more frustrated at myself. I hope everyone knows that I am trying to move on. I hope no one feels that I'm crying about my problems constantly and not wanting to better myself or improve my situation (this is coincidence to your blog Brendan haha). This has become a bigger challenge then I could ever imagine, but I know I will pull through. Bear with me and be patient. I just want everyone to know I am trying my best, but I may need a vent session just to get my frustrations out.
We all deal with problems/issues differently and I'm trying to be proactive in conquering mine. Parts of me think I'm forcing things and not letting things happen naturally, but I refuse to accept that I can't try and get out of my funk.
Sorry I didn't mean to post that last part, but just came out naturally. I think there are things that I want to put on my blog, but I know she reads it. Even though I shouldn't care, I don't want her to see me in a weak state.
No more weddings for me for a while, that shit made these things crawl back in mind. haha.
As for great memories that always seem to make me smile:
-College graduation - who could ask for any better day then being able to stand tall with my best friends at graduation.
-High school graduation - walking w/ Brendan, felt like we went full circle.
-Playing football at Payne School (elementary -> middle school -> some high school -> now)
-Playing Hockey at Payne everyday during the summers. I never felt so confident in my ability at a sport. The first time I ever felt like I could succeed.
-Playing Track n Field at my house and Eric crying because the other dudes were cheating.
-Playing Tecmo Bowl every chance I could against friends.
-Playing NHL against Brendan online and Andy calling Mr. H a bitch without knowing it.
-Pink Taco, Casper, Maniac Cop, Sushi Boy, Flaming Bovine playing Duke Nuke Em everyday.
-Singing in the car in high school.
-Proms, dances -> my form of sad, pathetic dating in high school haha.
-The "no pants" night, "kent's naked", gay movie title game, breakfast burritos, "Rob Lowe" night
-Obons - Fuji -> giving out rings -> andy's hamburger story -> andy hittin on old ladies -> "you got it" -> and now Bingo and Batman.
-Jonathan's 22nd -> Jillians -> cleaning shoes -> head hitting window -> video tape -> Pho -> fingers that don't move.
-Old Navy and getting that coupon from the old lady in front of me and brendan and I putting on a show for the cashier.
We have lots o' stories and memories, hopefully they don't stop......
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