First off to Curry...that Ingno is Bliss blog is fucking great! =) Now for the PMS mood swing...

I cannot say in words how pissed I am at this very moment...but I'm gonna try!

I understand I am going into an industry full of shit. An industry where most of the time the art is sacrifcied for money. A group of people that look like Japanese at first...then you realize they are just eating the shit. Where someone put in hard sweat and sleepness nights into making their vision a reality. For some film is truly about art. For some people it is all about the money. Well fuck them all to hell.

Swimfan: NO I did not go see this shit. I actually do want to see it...see it burn in hell with all the other money loving bitches. I will not comment on this movie. I also think Erica Christianwhatever is overrated. Anyone who plays a fucking drug addict (Traffic) is considered good in the industry.

Rules of Attraction: One word. Dawson. That was simple. Whoa...easy Mr. .45 in my right hand...I'll need you for later.

Fear.com: Syntax Bullshit Error 404...page "Profits" not found.

I can go on forever about how Hollywood is fucking retarded. I am not going to since I know we can all think of shitty movies. Ahem...Snow White Canadian Style...but they really did stoop to an all time low. First of all if The Ring is fucking shitty I will be pissed. Since I like Naomi Watts' acting I will go see it. So where am I going with this? Well a short time ago I heard of rumors of Akira coming out in theaters. I'm thinking "Well thats cool. More people will be able to see its twisted plot and see how anime can be cool other than little girls riding around on broomsticks delivering shit and some crazy warrior princess saving the land like she's a planeteer". Then I figure it out. All Japanese open your mouths...all shit hits the fan. AKIRA WILL BE LIVE ACTION. What in fucks name are they thinking. Which stupid fuck in a leather chair decided to fuck Japanese up their asses. They obviously see how well Spirited Away and Princess Mononoke did and figure...why don't we buy the rights to some popular anime? "Howza bout that Akeeera shit? Isn't that about Nips and a love story or some shit ahyuck" Fucking pube flossers. I know why don't we cast Dawson as Tetsuo...or maybe Leonardo DiCaprio...yeah that's it. Or better yet let's cast some Chinese guy for it! Jet Li as Tetsuo...who's with me?

This might not seem like a big deal for some of you. Will the movie be good? Who knows but I doubt it. Its like some shmuck is thinking, "hey the Japs take our ideas and make them better, smaller and more effecient. Can't we do the same? Let us steal their anime. I hope the director dies. Just because he didn't have a hit since Bladerunner he's thinking...well what is like Bladerunner? Oh I know...Akira.

I know that while the Japanese were unable to have an army because of World War II they still had plans. They started releasing Mech video games so no one would think that could be real. As an inside joke they started releasing cartoons of mechs and made little models because they knew that in a couple years when the U.S. soldiers left Okinawa it was on. They have a secret underground army of mecha ready to destroy us. Piloted by women in a cute barely there outfits. You know you can call me crazy but just wait till you are being eaten by a Yellow Lion and the other lions are working on your family. And why not? The American people deserve it. Whoever thought it was a good idea to steal Akira deserves it. I will get rid of my pain right now...

"Oh Mr. .45? Where are you...oh there you are...thought you ran away from me for a sec...*BOOM

Hey guys I'm not doing so good.

I hate loud cars, they're stupid and irritating. A lot like loud people.
Remember Bryant, you said I have to see your bathroom, so whatever happens is your fault. Taco Roco anyone?

Yeah SOCOM is pretty fun. Wheee... ... ...
SNES forever haha!
Actually lately I've been playing some Virtua Tennis on Dreamcast. It's pretty impressive (and kinda hard), but I don't know exactly what the controls are since Kent bought all pirated versions of games online with no instruction booklets. I'll look online... there's no way a game that advanced can lack topspin and slice, right?!

Yeah I've been getting looks from cute girls lately too.
In my room at home.
Must be my imagination.
Damn.

Got a few new CDs lately... new for me anyways:
(1) The Jackson 5 Anthology
(2) The Best of Cameo
(3) The Best of Kool & The Gang 1969-1976
(4) Celebration: The Best of Kool & The Gang 1979-1987
I'm still listening through them, final judgments to come later. I also ordered the Zapp & Roger Anthology a couple days ago... eagerly awaiting that! So clearly my musical journey is still in reverse, which is fine by me considering the stuff coming out these days. The Jurassic 5 single is cool, and I like Erykah Badu's "Love Of My Life" from the Brown Sugar soundtrack--cool video too. Otherwise the radio irks me... I'm gonna start putting my mp3s on tape for driving music.

Speaking of driving, new tractor for Farmer Bri what? Another Civic huh... way to keep things interesting hehe. Main thing to remember is you want to be able to adjust the stereo volume.
Me? I'll be rocking the silver bullet steez for a bit, til I got the cheese for my own dope ride--feel me?

Tennis yesterday was brutally shitty (is that a new phrase? =D). I get out there and it's cold, and in the cold I have a real problem with my hands. I don't know if it's poor circulation or what, but my hands get REALLY cold. So when class finally starts all we do is split up for doubles matches. This is not how you learn. Not only that, there aren't enough spaces because two fancyasspants fools who obviously aren't in the class (but know the coach or some bullshiet) take up a court by themselves. So we've got six people on one court, taking turns playing doubles. Stupid. Not only that, the instructor says start our match immediately, so there's no serve or rally warmup for me. Playing tennis in the cold with no warmup doesn't work too well for me. Anyways, it was a waste of time and I should've been able to whoop all their asses by myself (except this one wheelchair guy who had a good serve), but I was cold, my hands were cold, and the class was being shitty. So after the brief 40-or-so-minute-class I headed over to the wall and rallied with myself for about an hour. Much better.

NOTE (5:05pm): Steve your last blog (today, 1:51pm) is laugh out loud hilarious. When Kent and I were on the same little league baseball team in Florida, the coach called us Kibbles and Bits. I was Bits, and none too happy about it. "Fillet O' Fish SHNELL!"

Damn, why do I have to be sick? I hate having this cold. It's making me sound like I'm 15 again, praying for puberty to over with. It sucks because I have a presentation on Friday and hopefully I don't look too stupid.

I think I got that bug of not sleeping well lately. I stay up late one night and I destroy my sleep schedule. I can't get to bed early if I wanted to now and when I do sleep I always wake up two or three times. I can't explain why. I think it's because I worry about too many things. Even little things. I think I need to bust out the "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff" and see if that can relax me. What's sad right now is that I can't even get into school at all. I don't have any motivation to do any work. I do the bare minimum. I have a couple midterms next week, but all I can think about is, I hope the Giants win the series. hehe I'll have to try and focus at some point because that job is nothing without a degree here at Poly.

You know what I hate? When people tell you that they're not doing well, but then they don't tell you why. Why the hell do you mention it then? Do you want me to feel sorry for you? or Am I why you're feeling down? I think it's one of those crazy mind tricks that people like to play.

You know what I hate even more? I have this bitch ass neighbor who drives a camaro, but it's his little baby. The bastard revs the engine every morning at 7 and sets off all the alarms in the parking lot. And his parking spot is right next to my room. How convenient! HIs house throws a frat party every weekend too and leave garbage all over. The funny part is this guy wears a white t-shirt and jeans everyday and he's hella balding, how sad. Also the dumpster for my apartment is near my room too and the damn garbage truck comes every morning to pick that shit up and rattles everything. Also I got a fuckin train that rolls by 4 -5 times a day, tooting it's bitchass horn and rattling my room. This is part of the reason why I dont sleep so well, but I didn't want sleep anyway. The good part is that I really like my apartment other than those inconveniences. My roommates are hella cool this year, I have my own room, hooked up nicely w/ Internet access, and I am walking distance to campus. My bathroom is kind of funny too, u have to see it!

On a lighter note, Socom is pretty fun. Time passes so fast when I'm playing. It has its problems, but it's not too bad. Andy's b-day is on Friday, so if you would like, you may wish him a happy bday! I think it will be one of those nights where I genuinely get faded. All depends on if I get better from this cold. I haven't gotten supremely faded since Obon, but that was an awesome time! For me at least...sorry to those that I was a jackass too. Which could be everyone..haha. Another light note is that I found out a couple of girls like me. Problem is a. I never see them on campus, except one on certain Fridays, depending if I have to go to class or not b. the two are in the same sorority, I know sororities bad, but there are no other asian girls on campus, c. I'm not totally sure if one has a bf or not. Another small problem is Kevin says I'm not allowed to date anyone because of all the drama I've been through hehe. I think it might be good to get back in the game, just at a slower pace. One of the girls, I think is really pretty, but she had a bf last year, I don't know if things have changed. Either way, my confidence is pretty high. I still think is pretty funny how I never got any looks when I was in high school, but lately I've noticed getting a few looks here and there. I blame it on me going to ghetto ass PHS. The only problem with getting looks is that I don't know what to do after that. =) Damn, 22 almost 23 and I don't even know how to approach girls, unless I am extremely drunk which I've demonstrated numerous times, but leave a horrible impression. Damn alcohol, you're my curse! But I loosen up...double edge sword!

My random ass blog is done for today....good night...I hope I can sleep. =D

okay so one of the classes i'm taking, the japanese pop culture class, just had a three hour lecture on anime and it's influence on global culture. It was the best lecture i've had at this damn school.

all i gotta say is: Grave of the fireflies is the most fucking depressing anime ever. I still haven't seen the whole thing, but i did see the first five minutes and holy shit i wanted to cry. Story is this: a guy and his sister's parents are killed by the americans during WWII bombings. He tries to take of her, but he can't and she ends up dying of malnutrition. And then he dies. Another one, called Barefoot Gen, is the most insane anime/manga i've seen about hiroshima. It's fucking traumatizing I swear to god. When I was flipping through the pages of the manga I could feel my skin crawling. It was absolutely terrifying and ...ugh...it's just REALLY FUCKED UP. I strongly suggest u guys watch it.

we watched some doraemon too. Hooray. We also looked a bit into Tentacle Sex. Joy. Porn in schools.

Has anyone seen that new movie "Spirited Away"? Looks pretty good.

I dropped a class (well actually i never added it). So now i'm down to 2 jobs and 3 classes. It's nice mix. I don't think i could have done four classes with the work. It's nice to get a good steady income as well. Of course that will all end when i graduate it's but it's okay cuz i have bryant to fall back on. I'm sure jon will join me on trips to bryants house to eat all the chips and salsa in the cupboard.
Probably borrow some clothes too (new years all over again yay!)

Finally got cable. Saw "you so crazy" again. almost pissed myself laughing.

k got three papers to write. I'll talk to you all laters.

Just another week... These past few days have been so uneventful! My car's sorta fixed, apparently my distributor was totaled, and my timing belt needed replacement... Expensive but manageable. I'm starting to save for a new car and hopefully I'll have one next year. Yay for cheaper Civics!

Got a few new CD's this week; Jurassic 5, The Magnificent DJ Jazzy Jeff, and Paul Oakenfold. They're all pretty good, but I've been listening to J5 a bit more. They have one track that flows really well. It sounds a little harder than their previous CD, and I like.

Paul Oakenfold's CD is a little different than I expected, but still just as good. He's doing a lot more with vocals, and he even got Ice Cube to do a track. (While I respect the rapper, the song still sucks donkey balls) I've read that the techno age is dying off, but it seems Oakenfold is evolving. Some will probably say he's selling out, but what can you do?

Er as for the DJ Jazzy Jeff album... I didn't know what to expect from his solo debut, but he does it pretty well. The beats are pretty catchy and he seems happy to have this album out. Scratches are still top notch as well... No Will Smith in this one though, he did one better and got Shawn Stockman on a track.

On a little more serious note, have you heard that the media is linking the sniper in DC to video games? Again, I want to smack somebody. Old people really need to die... I hope the sniper turns out to be a middle aged bastard who knows nothing of videogames so we can tell the media to shut up.

...creativity where the fuck are you? Oh I know where it is...splattered all over the wall!

Okay so let me tell you about this dream...I promise it won't be a description like Hapachan's that could be made into a weeklong movie like The Stand or anything like that. As some of you may know I seem to be living on a planet where creativity does not exist. I've been staying up late at night trying to formulate something creative while trying to sleep. Funny how me concentrating on creativity keeps me awake and if I sleep I don't dream of shit. So either way I lose. Anyways tonight I fell asleep for about 2 hours and woke up sweating. It was absolutely disgusting. As I woke up and aired my leg hairs out I was able to remember the last part of my dream...or nightmare...whatever. Apparently I'm sitting in this dreary hotel room overlooking this dark city. I remember the hotel room being dirty with the green tinted flouresent (spell check please Eecs) lightbulb that would get darker then brighter. The wallpaper was straight out of a Victorian house (and if you don't know I ABSOLUTELY HATE Victorian interior designed houses). I was getting sick of breathing in the dead air so I decided to sit near the window. The condensation had to be wiped away and I realized this city was dirty but live. I remember seeing lots of happy people and everyone was smiling even though the environment was disgusting. Growing tired of not being able to be creative I decided to take a gun (where did it come from? I dunno...) and shoot my brains out all over the wall. Then for the 20 seconds or so that I was lying face down in my own pool of blood I look closer. In the blood I see all these ideas start to reflect and for the last seconds of my life I was creative again.

So since I do not want to kill myself I'm going to analyze this dream in this way: Creativity cannot be forced to the surface but it is always with you...it is in your blood and in your mind. The only way for it to come out is to kill the state of mind that you are in now...in my case I'm in a rut...but I am now confident that if I just let it flow it will all come out at the right time. Now that my legs hairs are dry I'm going back to bed. Although I know that it is all wet and cold in my comforter...ugh...gross. Anyways as soon as that creativity flows like wine...my website has been put on hold until I can fully visualize it down to the smallest details! Oh by the way...MOHAA>SOCOM...ROLLERCOASTER TYCOON 2 THIS TUESDAY...I better get my creativity back for that or else my customers are going to be bored and end up going to Great America....nooooooooooooo....